you innards have a pleasant aftertaste.
»
PROFILE ►
I cried "corn beef" in a demonic voice in front of people I'd just met. If that tells you anything about me...
Other than that, the name is Nabilah Johari who goes by her days embarrassing friends with her shameless antics.
ily japanese writers for making me bawl
Monday, December 10, 2007 9:04 PM


I remember a few months back when I used to be in the college Journal club, as one of the photographers. And I also remember reading a person's work of pure literary. It was generally about life in high school. Not in Brunei though; plain western.

Hah. N00b. She still thinks like a premature snot-filled kid who plays with Barbie... the whole set. With Kenny. And her daughter little sister.

So other than the fact the 10 page worth of "literature" was below par. Let me quote so it's not from my very lips, "It's like some drunk writer who just hurled. I wouldn't want to be this girl if I publish this." I mean really. The metaphors inda kena mengena lagi, the words. It's like she just threw in words she just discovered in the dictionary and used it.

I'm not trying to humiliate this person, and I'm not gonna say her name. But it was so painfully awfully too cliche it pains me even reading one sentence from any page.

Despite it being too dreadful to recall I remember a sentence or at least I think it is, but the punchline I remember just not the name.

Oh my god Stephanie is really cool isn't she? She's like COOLER THAN THE NORTH POLE!

Hahahahahalmaorofllololll. COOLER THAN THE NORTH POLE? Good god who in their right mind would say that? Like, really now. If you come up to some guy in band with real talent or someone you really look up to, you don't say to them OMG Like you ARE so cool! I mean, you're practically cooler than the North Pole! ILY let me kiss your feet!

No no no no no no. Heo no you di-int say that.

Hmm I wonder if Miss Editor still keeps the thing for her own entertainment.

Oh and one more thing I'd like to share with you wonderful people : I am not bored... NOT ANYMORE! XD XD

I will be missing Zatty for twenty-fricken-six days. Haha I'll be expecting twenty-fricken-six days of no out-of-ordinary conversations. And her random "so WASSSSSSSSSSAAAAP NAB?". HAHAHAHA man, that still got me. Funny as ever.

Damn slow sad song about death that kept on reminding of a certain sad Jdrama about a girl who lose her control of her nerves then in the end dies as she couldnt control of her own breathing which was really really doleful.

I remember expressing everything I felt while watching the drama and most of the female MSN contacts PMed about it. HAHAHAHAHA. Man, I miss watching it. I should buy the DVD. Or download it. However my RAM is almost full. I had to sacrifice the old videos and songs and pictures for more space. But it's -- just -- SO HARD. T___T

I WANT TO WATCH ONE LITRE OF TEARS. I want to bawl my eyes out in every episodes. I want to feel like strangling Ryo for being such a -- guh. Need to calm down before I spamming this entry with worthless informations.

Anyone? One litre of tears? Rent or buy with cash? I don't mind. T___T

.
.
.
.
.
.
.


Shit. I was spose to blog about something else but I got sidetracked to blogging about something not relating to what I previously wanted to post about. Shit. I just said all that in one breath. Am I awesome or what?

Labels: , , , , , ,



0 Comment(s):

Post a Comment

I CUTTED MY HAIR! XDD haha "cutted"
Sunday, December 9, 2007 2:18 PM


My MSN contacts must've been wondering why yesterday my nick was a bit threatening.


The next person to ask how I'm doing will be either castrated or blocked.

That was it wasn't it? Something was amiss don't you think? And I went online late at night, around almost 11PM.

Story is...

My baby brother effed up my laptop and I couldn't get it running normally. Since 7 till 11 I was pissed and bored. My brother and my brother were victims of my snarky snappy attitude. bwahahaha. However I did something that I haven't done in a long long time!

I slept! And became so... vain! And I slept!

And here are the pictures~


Honestly, when I PS-ed this one I had numerous toilet breaks 'cause it freaked me out.

Oh have I told you guys I got a haircut after this?

Hellew, down below is my hair. As in before it was cut.


AND PEEKABOO! HAHAHAHAHA!! Now that is what I qualify to be FREAKISHLY FUNNY.


Then I cut it. VOILA! XD XD


This one's a random one. This was days taken before the hollies and if I'm not mistaken Mush took this.

Okay. I lie. Again. I bet by this time you blodders might lose trust in me. But I don't mind. I won't be depressed because of that. 'Cause I have almost a lifetime supply of gay fics, videos, news. And I'm glad that the veterans are generous.

So the lie was I didn't cut my hair. I just wanted to show you the freakishly funny picture with a plot.

Labels: , , ,



0 Comment(s):

Post a Comment

Saying 'I'm sorry' is the same as saying 'I apologize.' Except at a funeral.
Friday, December 7, 2007 2:43 PM


I have been a bad bad blogger. Many things occured during the holidays and I didn't even care to share it with you my wonderful blodders.

And yesterday may have been the reason why the mousepad and some of the little grey keypads on my laptop is smudged with something that I suspect to be chocolate. I'll get you back Hamiz!

I am loving green more than I used to. X) And the reason is a secret I want to keep to myself!

I've been a bad friend too.



I'm really sorry. Hazim if you still read my blog I want to tell you how sorry I am for ignoring you all these days. You know about that problem I told you and you've been telling me to forget about him and blah blah the likes. Something else came up and yeah, I'm sorry. I just felt awkward, is all. So I hope we're still friends eyh, Megan?

PS
Don't worry I still remember about the promise. =)

- Billy XD



Glad that I got that out of my chest. Confessing and letting things out is good, but too much is bad. So I need to suck it all up and be a man woman mannish woman ...just be tough.

Went to Zee's yesterday with Mush and Sin and it was partially fun and partially torturing. Oh and there were Zee's siblings - just two Mizah and Afiq. Weirdly enough we had a group confession thing and us with Zee's siblings uh, became something. No what I'm trying to say is it doesn't happen a lot that friends and siblings know each other's secrets. It just doesn't happen. ... Does it?

Oh effing well.

I was being a jerk for being so naive and clueless. I'm sorry Sin. HAHAHA awu bah I'm really sorry dari ujung rambut hingga ke ujung kaki. .....Is my Malay okay? Yeah, I'm sorry about that whole sibling thing. But we cool aight homie?

Was suppose to blog something related to Zatty 'cause in her blog she mentioned me twice. X) But I guess the rice and ayam kari didn't do any good to animate my noodles. I need to go out 'cause I think every of my cells and tissues are fused to my bed that I'm now a living paraphernalia.

I had a weird dream today. I remembered nothing except that I was in college and I played cards. CARDS. BIG TWO. PLAYING CARDS. And I felt nothing on my chest. So I assume that I was a guy in that dream. But I saw this one particular black-ish accesory on my wrist and I kinda knew who I was.

Moral of the story : Dreams corrupt your mind. I don't play cards. And I'm not a guy. Get that in your head. I may act like one but deep inside I have woman hormones and a female sexual organ(courtesy of the Mighty Creator, not a phony fanny)

Yes, I am bored. Bored to the ass.

Right now it's exactlllyyyyyyyyyyy 5 13 PM and a few minutes ago I ordered food from McD for my two brothers and myself. No bribes or punishments involved. Just a simple order-up and there will be no food war. I promise. Who am I kidding, I can't make promises to myself. That's GHEI! Okay I was just kidding.

It's just weird yknow. I don't usually be a nice sister. I either loom over one of them and scare them till they wet their pants or even steal their food and say the spirit living in the house stole it with a proof that "I saw!".

So,

Thought of the day : "The spirit in this house is possessing me to act nice to my siblings. I saw!"

Well I'm hungry. Byyyyyyyyeeeeeeeeeeeeee from the girl who just knew what NABU means.

Labels: , , ,



0 Comment(s):

Post a Comment

in love with AnyBand
Thursday, November 8, 2007 9:58 PM


Right now I would love to post a hate entry about Sociology, but no. 'Cause people love the damn subject, and will write flames to me about their beloved subject.

So no, no hate entries anymore. I've learnt my lesson to keep it as drafts or keep it password-protectd but since this is Blogger and not wordpress password-protected entries doesn't exist here not post any hate entries. Damn those times. Damn it and throw all the sorrowful memories down to the deep abyss of hell.

So, an update about DBSK. Skip down if you're not interested in knowing about the fandom.

*_______* AnyCall CF was uber awesommme! I -- I swear that godsent CF could make us fangirls go high for weeks!

So you don't need your ovaries right?

I MEAN, IT'S OKAY IF THEY EXPLODE.

It was that good, I swear! Scout's honour!

TPL (Talk, Play, Love) was -- I am too speechless to describe how much the awesomeness mixed with the hotness that is Junsu heavily dripped in every second possible! OH. MY. GOD. Koreans are just, just -- they're geniuses behind their masks of cute cat-like eyes of nerdiness!

BoA was hot in there, Jin Bora was cute but Tablo... TABLO'S VOICE SCREAMS OHMYEFFINGGODIAMTEHSEXGOD!! His voice compliments a lot with Junsu's. And I cried watching it. Over, and over again. I love it that much.

I am listening to TPL on repeat for the past 5 hours, and I am still marvelling the A;LDKSJFLGH-esque quality of it! Oh god, it gives me chills listening to it. CHILLS!!

Junsu you are teh secks.



END OF FANGIRLING.


I had Sociology paper 1 this afternoon, and I came to school.

Try debating against me that I am not a very very daft person. Try, and I'll win the case because I am daft. *headdesk*

I mean I could've gotten more time to study at home, that way I could work up my way to collect more factual knowledge that what my already-flattened brain contains. I've wasted and threw away my chance to study during PS, EAS and Socio - and which the two classes were either cancelled or the teacher's off to invigilate - and barely read anything.

Oh and mom accused me for not entering the AS. God that really hurts. It stings so much that I won't to engrave a spear through me instead of this feeling of mistrust. Ouch, woman. You're my mooooooomm for god's sake! My MOM.

Random note to self : Practise on the card flinging throwing act thing. You totally suck at it. Get 'sin to re-teach you or sump'n.

I'm not getting comments on this because I know this entry oozes lame boring from any angle. So I thought up something.

.
.
.
.
.

Comment or I'll send this guy over your place and eat your nose.


Labels: , , , , ,



0 Comment(s):

Post a Comment

hiatus
Thursday, November 1, 2007 11:21 PM


Dudes, my avid or not readers, my fans my amigos...

I L.O.V.E. y'all from the bottom of this corrupted heart for still coming here and hope for an update. But I'm sorry for bearing you bad news.

I am feeling depressed, therefore I am emo.

Due to that - and since Anis told me not to post emo entries since it'll fluctuate the number of views - this blog will remain with this entry until I recover from this heavy emoness.

Oh and by the way, Anis(my LP), Fakhrul, Farhan(YDP) and Nazz, you people rock. I mean it. I love you gays and lesbians. I liked that Fakhrul is actually gay only to Farhan, but too bad he's taken, man.

And how amazingly lesbian we were being in that chat window.

To the ladies out there; Fakhrul is an awesome being who might be striding in Africa, hunting elephants, to find the vaccine for -- I will shut up now.

But my so-called LP left me. To have a scandalous affair with another guy. Kira sakit kai tu ah.

Good night;
let me dream of hot, manly homosexuals in a MANPILE on BED.

.RAWR.

Labels: , ,



0 Comment(s):

Post a Comment

I'm the Undertaker
Monday, October 15, 2007 3:42 PM


Nothing unexpected happened, but something fun did happen.

Mom decided that we shouldn't raya till Maths AS on the 17th is done, and you know what her reason was? Karang kan, kalau beraya-raya ngalih jua kan ia ne, ilang focus dalam exam ia krg. Right mom. Riiigghht. I don't get tired just by beraya-ing, we barely walk a stone's throw in every houses. She thinks I'm studying, well, I am "studying". Mun paham bisai.

Guess who crashed my house tadi? Seriously, guess. I dare you.








Can't think who? Try again.





Abis tia? Abis? Sakit kepala memikirkan?


You quitter. Boo.




Well, Fakhri, Yazid and his friend, Qawie crashed at my place just a few hours ago. Or was it half an hour ago. Gah, who cares. So yeah, they came presidential did they arrive. Yazid as the president's driver. Qawie as the one-man bodyguard. And when there's a president's driver and a one-man bodyguard there's always a president. Do I have to say who the president is? That man sitting at the back seat, his arms rested on the headrests with that smug face, Fakhri was acting like he's the president.

They came in and we talked... ever-so-quietly, finished the Kuih Tapak Kuda, took some candies, finished the can of Zesty Zappel, ate Keropok, left and I did not give them ang pau. HAH. I am so badass. A badass whose badass activites only involves some petty evil doings such as not giving ang pau... and... no ang pau giving. Yes, I am soooooo badass and I'm proud of it.

Oh did I mention that Yazid came with a BMW. Dayuuuummm.

Once I get my license I'm gonna own the Tungku Link with my own Black Hummer with those blingin' rims with a pool, a mini bar, hot males models all clinging to me begging for my undivided attention, a bouncer, a club and lots and lots of Jude Deveraux's books stashed inside the Black Hummer. Yeah, you just wait for another 9 months, you'll see me taking both the left and right lane at the same time and drive like how my momma used to do it.

Back to the topic(that originally wasn't there to begin with), Maths AS will be a bitch.

Tonight I will dress up in my excruciatingly eye-clawing heart-bursting life-taking YELLOW baju kurung. So expect a dramatic rise of heart burn, death tolls, blindness, deafness cases in one night. If your house blacks out, call me and I'll "brighten" up the house. You don't even need any emergency lights, 'cause you got me... in an excruciatingly, eye-clawing, heart-bursting, life-taking YELLOW baju kurung.

If you hear a blood curdling scream as if someone's dying somewhere in Tanjung Bunut, I'm preeetty sure that's my fault.

I love my mom for picking out this colour. I really do.

I wonder what colour she wants me to wear for the next raya visit.

Labels: ,



0 Comment(s):

Post a Comment

mixed feelings put in one
Thursday, July 12, 2007 8:59 PM


Not much eh?

There are things that scare the wits out of me, and I thought to myself just now that maybe, just maybe, I wasn't mentally prepared for what was to come in my direction. It really scares me. Even when I hear the words from him shrivels my soul.
And daftly I just realised that now, after months he said that to me. Pretty freaky. And another one of those lines from him just this afternoon I felt it in my skin, that it felt so foreign and daunting.

This feeling only crept up to a higher and a frightening level with the "help" of Aaron only makes this hollow feeling more forbidding. Oh dear god, thinking about it makes my fingers hard to move about on the keyboard. It's practically numb and kinda frozen.

Oh god, why you? Why? Of all people why me?
My breathing ragged and my chest thumping at a rate that it could burst. Oh god why?
I know it was my fault that I made him this way. But I tried reasoning with me why he should stop. But it seems that my words were just air. Air that you could just wave it off and tale for granted.
I'm sorry. I knew it was all my doings. So please for my sake, stop.
*
If I knew any better, I would've studied for Socio at least a day before the day of the test. (facepalm)
Cramming all the specifics and essentials about interviews and questionnaires in less than ten hours is proven to be unattainable and instigates a high chance of permanent brain damage. And I think I'm undergoing the initial process now. Or did it happen earlier ago when I fell asleep during the test. (shrug).
Anyhoo yet again, I didn't do that well for the first paper of the Socio test and now I have to study a whole lot harder for the second paper to make up for the first. (sigh) Ah well. I don't know how to force myself to study Socio.
I need motivation. Really. And a whole lot too. A huuggee chunk of it. Because I don't wanna fail for the second MPR.
Sociology is the only subject that I've ever come across to abhor to the very core of my burning soul full of anger and hatred. I hate youuuu Socio!!
*
After the test I quickly packed up my stuff and rushed to the library. Hahaha. I have hidden agendas. Well not so hidden. But still I had stupid trivial reasons why I practically ran and almost tripped on my two feet and stepped on my skirt. (sigh)
There wasn't anyone I know in front of the library and killed time by reading the fics I saved from various LJ comms. And coincidentally "he" was there. Hm. Was taken aback for a short moment before I went to sit somewhere I can't recall where. (is in a total blur) Yeah.
So I read fics and unconsciously kept on glancing at him. And he was busy with his own stuff so wasn't the slightest bit concerned about getting caught redhanded taking glances at him. Yet again I was proven wrong... he saw.
Actually that wasn't the first time today. While I was studying for Socio which started 5 minutes before the test and he suddenly appeared out of nowhere and I got very very distracted. I began acting the usual hyper, crazy, fangirl me and my head almost went around 360 degrees scanning the area for him and was turning around.
He turned to somewhere around me and stupidly, I quickly turned around and flail my arms about as if I was stretching my arms. HAHAHAHA I was stiff that time so the stretches were as stiff as a board! HAHHAHA!! Man, why do I tend to lose my cool when it comes to this? HAHHAHA!! It's sooo not me.
So after I finished reading those fics I made my way out and I felt the wind crashing to my face and the coldness was uncanny. It wasn't everyday that you feel small droplets of rain hitting you face as soon as you step out of the library.
It drizzled at first and I sat alone on the red plastic chair and kept on seeing the he-b*tch from time to time. So I thought that of I can't really kill him or punch the lights out of him, maybe I could learn to forget about what happened and yeah.
No sooner Fakhri, Zils, Baz and the others came from... somewhere under the light rain and then FWOOOSSHHH!!! the rain became heavy as soon as they stepped on the pavement. HAHHA! Sometimes I love how nature works its wonderous ways. Ooo~ Alliteration! And then there was strong wind and everything clattered and glass fall and crash into uncountable pieces, notes flown and scattered everywhere on the wet muddy ground, skirts.....flew up..... and guys go 'Oooh~ Phewiit!' Bunch of pervs.
Then talked with Zati for a while behind the library before she went home and the rain withered and the wind died down for a bit and everything calmed down. Then silence.
Uwaa~ Twas boring that time. Everyone else went to watch the footie match and mom picked me up. Mom, bro and I went to McD because I kept on pestering her about food and how hungry I was.
We ate out and during the destination home my mom was being crazily funny that I laighed till my stomach hurts. She was talking about racing the Merc that was beside us.
So then while turning at a curve with the hot sleek grey Merc still beside us, she kept on saying "Mari ko, mari ko, hahahaha cuba lawan mercedesku ane nah! Hah! Hah! Cubatah nah!" HAHAHAH And then and then she had this poker's face on and her back slumped forward as if imitating a real racer! HAHHAHA!!
She pushed the pedal to the metal and zoomed past the Merc then laughed in her so called victory and continued racing against the Merc which eventually "won" against her.
And then and then... she made this joke and I swear made me almost piss in my pants...skirt...whatever... HAHAHAHAHA!! Then I continued the joke till we got home~ And laughed-- OH OH!! While mom was about to drive in the junction this um, well known transvestite in our kampong just passed by us and waved to my mom. So then my brother questioned the driver's gender.
Then mom said : "Eh, si Saleha tu!"
And my brother choked on his words when he heard it, and looking at his expression and his sudden silence made me crack up. Then mom continued : "Masa pagi namanya Salleh tu, awal malam ane Saleha jadinya." HAHAHAH I don't know and I'm not sure why that made me ROTFLMAO in the car but I think it's the way she said it. HAH!
Man, then I continued with the statement to become a joke and we laughed to our merry ways till we got home and till we went inside the house. I bet the maid next door thought we were crazy or something. But hey, I had a fun time. My family consistes of three crazy members, a serious member and a baby! And with all that, there's no time when it ain't fun with my mom.
(sigh) I wanna watch the tournament! >________________<

Labels: , , , ,



0 Comment(s):

Post a Comment

Rejoice the eyecandies~
Thursday, May 17, 2007 9:06 PM


Good evening~

Not much had happened today. Nothing worth to be reminisced at the moment, but well for a few scenes of today are worth it.

I haven't updated my blog even though I have 3 drafts in Blogger, and all of 'em are meant to be longish. I've been busy these days so at nighttime I'm always continuing the draft and halfway through(or less) my eyes drooped and I soon fell asleep. I only wake up around after midnight but then I would be too sleepy to continue writing. So I saved the draft for later continuation.

Hmm, I was spose to say something after this. I had it in my mind. But now, I forgot. =.=
Ah. Right. I was asking if I've told Zati whether I told her of my latest eyecandy and one of the previous ones is now in blacklisted.

And I was coming up with some fantasy idea that the newest member of My Eyecandies is shortlisted. I really wanna talk to him.
This afternoon I had the chance. No one was there to bother me or so to say to distract me by unwillingly be my victim of excessive fangirliness. Anyway, I saw - hmm what should I codename him? "Nuai"? Cause he reaaallyy looks like my cousin(who's also hot) - Nuai during lunch time and Si Songkok - well since he cut his hair and doesn't wear his songkok again but still! :p - and I was talking to Jong and she's gonna leave me all alone next week and more.

She said something about her card not being finished or something else. She's a punk. But a cool punk. I like her hair. Her long soft shiny fringe is highlighted green and few are in gold or light brown. Really nice. (Y)

Anyway back to whole point of this.
While I was listening to Jong Yee Ling talking I was looking at random directions around the GDL's. Jong and I were at the rebel's line. So many people were passing back and fro, some were blocking the way, some slowed down the traffic, some sat in the middle of the general pathway and most, with common sense and wit, were at the sides not disrupting the human congestion.

ANYWAY...
Nuff of description.
As I looked around at random directions, I found myself absentmidedly glancing at Si Songkok's direction but twas not in every second I could find.
A satisfied smile crept unto my face when I saw Manhunt, buying a drink from the goddamned vending machine, and as I was also listening to Jong I looked like one of those toys where its head goes round and round while nodding. It's weird.

I looked away when Manhunt turned to my general direction. Then the luckiest thing happened to me~

As I turned away I absentmindedly, again, looked at Yu-- Si Songkok. He was looking at me.

His new hairstyle - short, neat and typically stereotyped to be one of the famous footballers' hairdo - made the smile before to become much more... wider and teethy.

Masses of people somehow made like a frame of him for me to watch him more intensely. And those masses were just a total blur to mine eyes. All I could see were blurs of white, black and purple. And the perfect lighting shone on him.

His dark beady eyes defiantly, boldly, audaciously, unflinchingly and other derivatives that could match his daring attitude that time, felt as if went through my soul and read my thoughts like a simple children's book. His boyish looks more fervent in what way? I'm not sure. But I could sense his confidence, boldness as he looked. Arms knotted across his chest, his lips curved in that desire-endowed smirk. If it wan't for the pillar beside me my legs would've been jelly and I'd fall in a clumsy oof.

Thus right now I'm listening to She Want Revenge's Tear You Apart. I kinda think that the beat of the song suits that very moment. *nosebleed*

His back straight and long, his head slightly high up in the air to give a sense of his cute arrogance, his whole being looked ever so desirable, wanted, needed, craved for. Like in the lyrics of the said song 'I wanna fucking tear you apart'. And oh god, have I not have the great constraint to not faint and hit my head onto the longkang.

All happened so slowly that I thought time gave me a chance to look at him better. But no, I was plainly being fangirly that I thought that Si Songkok was staring at me for a long time. It all happened in a mere second, and yet I could come up with a page worth of ardent descriptions.

Rab had told me some tips on how to start a friendship before going long.
She told me to smile at him, and he smiled back then tis a good sign to move frontward.

I had my chance to spark that onset of "friendship". But that time my gears in my mind suddenly became hard and unmoving. My eyes and focus was mainly on his sexy boyish smirk. I could've fainted yo. FAINTED~

It wouldn't be me if I didn't at the very least grin while hiding it. And I did. Jong noticed. So did some few others that I didn't know. I lied to her saying that I saw something which reminded me of something funny. Gah. That's a pathetic lie, but it's excusable in my situation, right? No? Ah well.

After thinking about it since I just couldn't get rid of the image of him directly staring at me. At the very thought of it sends me shivers and feels almost... I felt like a missing piece after all these years finally put back to its rightful place. HAH! Cheesy much~

His boyish charms are his good points. Very very good points. I know that there are other girls and/or guys who takes a fancy towards Si Songkok - okay, let's chanhe his name since he doesn't even wear one now. Wait we call him "pretty square boy" right? Okay then, we're stikcing to that for now.

Well that was one of the two things I wanted to tell about this "afternoon". The said above are pre-Socio events while the things I will say for now would be post-Socio class events. So forth I go...

After Socio class I knew there won't be a lot of the GDL's since a big majority of them went to the Mall. They said it was to "release all their stress and worries". Riiiggggghhhttt.
So the ones who didn't and couldn't come were Mush, Lei, Dzar, Zimah, Fuad, Yazid and that's all I could think of.

I couldn't come because I had a dentist appointment. Zimah couldn't come because she had Maths till 3. The others... I don't know.
Around 2.30ish I sat DL and was alone in the heaps and dunps of bags. Dzar went BL with her bf. Lei went to his friends. Mush was wandering around. Fuad behind the flats. Yazid actually made me tpo jaga his things while he went sembahyang-ing. So practically I was alone. I couldn't care less, really. You know why? :D

Because "Nuai" was practically in front of me. He sat the edge of the longkang, his back facing me. I thought to myself whether he was a bit... antisocial.
Since he sat a little bit of distance away from his friends, so I figured that he might be antisocial or he just loooveeess to sit near a pillar. Just like me~ XDD

Oh! And just after Socio class I went to DL I was just looked lost and... directcionless? Don't mind the bad vocab. It's 2.30 am right now. I just finished talking with Munir and Fakhri who went to the Mall to "release their stress and worries" then after they left I was standing in front of the pathway, looking at random directions. The exit and entrance of the library. The V-bench. RC. Rebel's line. DL. The staffroom. The clouds. The trees. But then when I found out that that was a good time for me to take a glance at Nuai, as I turned to him he immediately looked away.

He was standing also. Near the exit of the library. He was with his friend, but I couldn't see his friend as he was blocked by the pillar. So when I looked at him, he instantly swiftly moved his eyes to the left as if he was only looking around. But I know. Because I do that myself. HA.
Sooo does that mean he knows that I like him and he started to look at me? Or was he just sooo bored that his eyes were casted to the only moving object he could see then averting them as soon as I turned to him, thinking that he was staring at me intently but actually his mind was a total blank and yeah.

But if it's either one of that, I don't wanna know. I've been depressed by one of the ex-eyecandies. So I need something to cheer me up. Thus I wanna believe that Nuai was actually looking at me as he started to notice me, since that first day we came to contact. Well barely but still.
He gave me his candy wrapper. It was empty, though. But the sweet was in his mouth. I took it since one of his friends was shoving it around, not wanting it. While to Rabs, I absentmindedly played with empty wrapper. He noticed it.

Nuai was two people away from me, and between us were Rabs and Marwan, and the latter being at his side. I fiddled around with the plastic and he poked his head out and looked at me Rabs then me them to my hands which held his candy wrapper.
And if my eyes weren't lying I thought I saw a flash of red spread scross his face. Cute~!! XDD

So when I went home at 3 I took m things and went to mom's car. But I forgot mu camera! gaaahhh... So I went back to DL and took my camera. I peeped to the exit of the library since he was there, sitting with his friend. When I took a peek, he was looking at me. I wanted to smile but my mind couldn't register and yet another case of braincramp. Shit.
I took my camera then left, grinning. His gaze was still hot in my mind. I couldn't forget it. I don't want to tell the others about it as they might TEASE me for god's sake. I told some GDLs that I like Pretty Square Boy and as he passed by Munir cunningly took a picture of him with my camera and I still have the picture. :]]]]]

So that's done. i still like to talk loads of crap in here. But hey, it's still an update right? HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. :D I love my eyecandies for cheering me up~

Labels: , , ,



2 Comment(s):

Post a Comment

Pictures of jogathon
Saturday, April 28, 2007 9:30 PM







Jogathon today rawked!! And for the first time I've upped some photos from today's event~










Fai and me~



Dii, you laugh soooo ungracefully.




Zaf; Fai(the one hiding behind Zaf); Zat(you stand like an old man); and Diyana(grinning as always)

Aren't you amazed by the huge population of students~? It's like WHOOOAAA!!


I honestly looooove this picture and I just looooove the guy in red~


Labels: ,



2 Comment(s):

Post a Comment

My eye twitched.
Monday, April 23, 2007 10:29 PM


Gah. Today sucks. I didn't post anything for 4 days. I had the draft and wanted to post it yesterday but my laptop was being a lagging fart, so as a noob I closed the window thinking that it might saved the draft. Then today when I checked it, it's gone. xp

*

Today started off badly.
Since yesterday my right eye did twitch. I'm a bit superstitious, so I knew that that means something. But I wasn't sure whether it was a good thing or a bad thing.

Gaaahhh... It twitched again just now!

Firstly I came to school later than usual. Then after registration "he" was there with his gf. It hurt. IN here. *pats chest*
I had to avert my eyes away from the staring couple when I came out of the room. But their eyes were on me. I think.

*shudders* Why? Why must I have to endure such great heartbreak and at the same time my insides fluttered?

Hmm... maybe that last bit was a scheme of indigestion.

Then in EAS we got ready for the debate. Everyone was. The prop team was pumped up and determined. But Zimah did not come. Thus her hiatus caused a lot of commotion amongst the prop team. Everyone was worried or the very least whispered into each other's ears asking why she didn't come.

Some, I heard, said she chickened out. But some said she skipped class again.

I called her in class and she answered the call after a few rings. She said that she couldn't come to school because she was kept on vomitting. She thought that it might be something about her diet. But hey, you better get well soon okay~?

Then another problem came. Sufi. He was clearly depressed. Seeing him so lifeless and so... quiet is just not normal for a Sufi. I asked him why and he quietly replied that his bestfriend left for the US. And I was like 'Ahhh... I understand how you feel.' I really mean it. I lost my favourite grandad to the hands of Death. I was... depressed.

Well since Zimah was the 3rd speaker of the prop team and absent, her hiatus caused both parties - props and opp teams - to argue whether to postpone the debate or continue it without her. It was also obvious that Zaf had her pissed off face and that Don't-make-me-break-your-neck-with-my-looks look. *shiver* I don't wanna see that.

Miss Zari stood up from her desk and disappeared behind the bright red door then came back in the room. She said that it'll be postponed. Without the debate we were left doing our works. But typically, we didn't do it. Because we are noisy and we looooove to talk.

*

EAS class wasn't productive. Then I had Socio after that.
Michelle was crying. No one knew what to do. The only ting we could do was to stare. At first it was Aaron who came up to her, but that didn't stop her cries. Then Larrie went to her and gave her tissue. Michelle was hiccup-crying. She was known as a determined, outspoken person in the class. Sure she ticks me off at times, showing her intelligence of Socio. But what I saw in front of me was... heartrendering. I pitied her.

Mr John Simmonds, our relief teacher, was being funny again. Despite that I, once in a while, fell asleep. Michelle calmed down a bit.

*

Then I had break and since Zimah wasn't there I didn't hang out with the GDLs. I only stood near the library, cahtting with Anis, Fai, Deyla and someone. Then after that I have my PS. I spent it doing my Maths homework. But ended up not finishing it 'cause all the questions I did didn't have the same answer as stated at the back of the text book. *siiiigh*

*

Then had Maths and I didn't see my JM but I did see him during Socio~
I got 19/20 in my test. Woohoo!! Then we learnt GP. Che. I kinda get it. But wasn't concentrating since my mind was off to Tokyo, thinking about the sendai concert. AHHAHA. Jin held hands with KAME!!

*

Lunch. I spent it with Zaf and Zati and Sally. Sally's crackers were gooood~ And I was being hyper again! HAHAHA!!

Then it was ELit Mr Peter Holland told us that we were his friends. 'Cause the ones who only came to class early. Or at all. 'Twas fun la~ Then Aaron kept on asking people what age he looks like. Majority said he looked like 19. That weird jerk boy asking pathetic questions.

After school. I played with Nadia, Diyana, Mush, Sa'aadah and...that's all. Mush, Nadia and I kept on poking eachother! Idea contributed by ME!! Then went home around 2.15... Che.

*

Right now I ate my pills coz I need them since I'm sick. S now I'm a bit srowsy as I'm typing this. Bare with me woth the typos. guuuhhh... i guess thatsall. Gota sllep. JA!

Labels: , ,



2 Comment(s):

Post a Comment

It...rained? Wow.
Tuesday, April 17, 2007 8:08 PM


J: Ne, Tat-chan. My feet are cold.
U: Then get yourself socks. *is engrossed reading a magazine*
J: *pouts* But I'm tired also.
U: *still engrossed*
J: Tat-chaaan~ My feet are lonely. *intensifies his pout*
U: You're such a baby. *puts down magazine* *gets on the bed with Jin*
J: A baby who has cold and lonely feet... *snuggles under the blanket*
U: Damn Akanishi! Did you stick your toes in the fridge or something?? *feels Jin's feet with his*
J: *innocent look*

awwww~ right? well kinda.

What happened? Hmm what happened? Ah yes, Yee Ping poinyted out to me that today was the very first day it ever rained in MD. Well she is true. Then...I had ELit. It was so-so 'cause we had to an essay about the contributions of Portia and Calphurnia in the JuC play.

EAS. Nothin' much happened in that class. :p

Break. Spent it with Zaf in Room 013(Chem Lab) for a short meeting for bowling club. Fiza and Azzah were there too. Azzah, Fiza, Zaf, some guy and some girl volunteered themselves as councils in the club.

Socio. I fell asleep!! Now we have homework due on Saturday and a monthly test at the end of the month sans the teacher teaching. She has a course for something she never elaborated further. Aaron's being weird during Socio. He sat beside me and talked to me about the "past".

PS. Zimah spent her time in the sickbay and didn't visit her~ -_-
So I spent that time doing my Maths hw. 'Twas easy. So no sweat.

Lunch. Was alone. Joanna disappeared and never went to the dining hall after I told her to go there after she passed up her work. SO I ate alone. Texted Zati and Zaf but the latter didn't answer me back.Then went to the sickbay and Zimah was gone. I went to the GDL place she was there! Siigh. Spent talking well, listening to them jabbering and taking pictures.

Maths. Geehhh... Hate Maths. I just hate the class, not the subject. So tomorrow we'll be doing Vectors and the test will be on...Thursday? Yeah I think.

After school. Went straight to GDL's place. Talked a bit with Mush. Very a bit. They took pictures. I watch and listen. Listened to inplicit attractions of someone with someone. Then Fa-gay-na pulled me inside the library to kacau Dee-gay with her bf. Then went out. We talked a bit.

Fa-gay-na went home. I was alone. Then Sa'aadah came. We talked a lot. She told me that MANHUNT was the vice-prez of Nature club~ MAN!! I should've joined it!! Then as if in queue MANHUNT passed by~!! *fans self* Wooohoooo!!!

Then the GDLians sang a bday song to Munir and they even made a huge purple poster card for him with some of the signatures of the GDLians. Aww~ He had the most sincere and hugest smile I've evr seen from him when he was with his gf. Must a good day for him. HAHA.

As hours passed, things went a bit.. slow-paced. Everyone was tired and sleepy. Then Najib came and laid his head on Zimah's lap while his side was in front of me like, my knees grinded aganst him. (Wrong words!!) Gehh... Yeah. He's been fun. He made jokes even though he's depressed EVEN though he said that he's bored. I know he's lying. I can tell. Ooo oo... One last thing to say...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUNIRRR~!!!!

Labels: ,



0 Comment(s):

Post a Comment

I have notin' better to do at midnight.
Monday, April 16, 2007 8:59 PM


So to say, today is a day full of surprises. Why? You know I'm still gonna tell why. So there's no need to ask why at the first place.

Lemme get to the story slowly okay?

Firstly, I got to school late but this is connected to what I'm gonna tell you.
When the car stopped at the traffic light I saw Zimah's car, I swore I saw her inside but she never came to school that time.

Then during registration I came around 7.15-ish and found that my eyecandy was there before me. He sat alone either revising for a test or doing his homework. *shrug* Not sure. Then Joanna, Yee Ping and I were, well actually only me, squealing and rabidfangirling over KAT-TUN and NewS and such. Then Sa'aadah waited with me in class and we were sputtering nonsense to the whole class thus getting weird looks of the AEs who came in. Then I rushed out of the class when ZB went to the class.

I still hurt. *pats chest*

EAS. Geh. Nothing much. Everyone was worried about Zimah. I was thinking if she was dating or something. Hah. I'm sorry,Zimah, that I'm thinking badly of you. Then spent the whole EAS period in the library.

SOCIO. I broke the record of my longest time not-faling asleep in class!! Yay~ But I did. For a few seconds. I had to hide behind Michelle so Miss Jules won't get a view of me, sleeping. HAH!

Break. What did I do? What happened? Ah yeah, I was tagah-tagahing outside the library doing practically nothing. Just standing there like an idiot. Then Yap came. Then Joana texted me that her class had no teacher.

PS. I wanted to do my Maths hw. But I didn't do them right a way. Instead went to Joana's class and flipped through her yaoi comics. Seriously I was being turned on. HAHAHA. Damn, I need to be in control of my hormones yo~

Then after Joana had taken all the attendants, Joana, Yap and I went around the school like a bunch of sasat people looking for their destination.

Ah crap. My mom's knoking on my door telling me to get off the internet. It's only midnight! Chill woman~

Where was I? Ah, yes sasat-ing. We talked about NewS and I now know that Joanna likes Ryo-chan~ Then we went inside the library 'cause I need to do my Maths hw. But I finished them real quick. As a reward for myself, I gave myself two candies~! Lemon teaaa...

Maths. I didn't get a glimpse of Jie M--- that time. Only saw the brother. -_-"
Mush/Muiz was there. Nadia wasn't. She's away to get her stitches opened. Now we're using the red book.

Lunch. Meh. I went straight to class to out down my bags and bumped into Zaf, who wanted me to accompany her to the canteen to give some Furuba to Dayat. I bought lunch and Aaron kept on blocking my way. His cute friend was there. Was beside me. Behind me. haha.

Before I went to the dining hall, he blocked my way again. Actually he had his foot out supposedly wanting me to trip over his oversized foot!! xp

Then I ate in the class and Zaf was depressed 'cause she thinks she scared the shit out of the boys in her Geo class because of a debate. Tsk tsk tsk. She thinks too much.

ELit. We did Calpurnia's contribution in point form. Sir Peter Holland made jokes. He rocks. Full stop.

After school. Anis, Zati and I were panat-ing in front of the library. I don't remember the jokes. Ah wait!! bout spongebob! But I forgot about what? I remember I made an impersonation of Larry the lifeguard. Then I remember myself laughing my ass ALMOST rolling on the floor. huh.

Then after Anis and Zati went I was left alone. I bought a drink after several fcuking failed attempts!! I drank and saw Sufi~ We talked abit then I noticed this girl(I only saw her back) with Mush and Anaz, but I know that back. It was Zimah.

So i screamed her name, all three turned around! I had that shocked look and froze there for a few sconds. Then wen to sit down, waiting for Anaz to leave. As soon as he did, Zimah told me that they broke up yesternight. I was like 'whoa' and I was happy for her!!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ Ill continue later. 'Cause I'm reaaallyy cold and sleepy.

Labels: ,



3 Comment(s):

Post a Comment

Tokatu kitakari
Friday, April 6, 2007 9:14 PM


My name is Tokatu Kitakari. Well, that is my supposedly Japanese name. Got it from a test. Or something. *shrug*

Zati, Anis, Zimah, Sally and me were spose to go to Zaf's crib today. HOWEVER Zimah and Sally couldn't come! T.T Would've liven(is that even a word?) up the practice! Nyeh. Too bad... tooooo baaaaddd. Zimah's mom had a function while Sally had transportation problems. Tooooo baaaaaddd. I'm not insulting them, I'm just dragging my wooorrrddsss.

So around 9ish I was the first to ever burst into the "silent" house. Riiight. ELit freak. Anyway, yeah I got to Zaf's place first and we went to her study room. The morning was slightly breezy but when I got into her study room, it was like, WHOOSH!!! Cold air surrounded everywhere around my body. *shiver* Then we talked and talked and ANIS came! And she brought a SHAWL, a WIG and a HAT!! It was cool, yknow! I'll play as Casca on Monday so they decided that I should wear all of the three articles mentioned in bold! Waaahh!!

Then Zati came right after I finished fixing the wig on my hair and the hat, and the shawl around my neck. She was like, 'Whoa!'. Yeah, I should've taken that picture with my own mobile. Pity. Not long after we began the roleplay. Zaf as Brutus, Zati as Cassius, Anis as Cinna, Mettellus and Trebonius and Me as Lucius, Casca and Decius. Then we roleplayed and remember our lines which took about... an hour or so? Yeah, 'twas fun~ We ended up making parodies of Juius Caesar and "my" Lucius!

'Brutus: Give me your hands all over, one by one.

Conspirators(us): *putting all 7 seven hands on top of each other*

Cassius(Zati): Boy! Lucius! What the hell you doing here?! Get your hands away! *pushes Lucius' hand away*

Lucius(me): *depressed* *goes away*'


'Cassius: And let us swear our resolution.

Brutus: No, not an oath. *pushes Cassius off the stage*'


'Zafirah: *saying one of Brutus' lines* *while eating Ruffles*

Zati: Brutus, finish your food first before you speak.

Zafirah: Yes, Cassius. For you love me, I shall eat this and continue my lines later. *eats her Ruffles*'

We were taking pictures of the 'beggar' Zati, 'beggar' me, 'beggar' me with a cat, Zaf saying her lines while eating Ruffles and I also took a vid with my mobile phone! ROFL nearly at the ending of the vid we heard in BIG LOUD crunching sound. That was ME! Hah! And Zati kept on coughing, telling that she choked on bits of Ruffles. Anis was ssshhhyyyy of the cameraaa. And yet, she's so vaaaaiiinnnn.

OH! And Zafirah's mom gave us jackets!! Cool ones, too! I want jackets like that! Zati's was black, and I want that. So was Anis'. I got a grey one. OH! I forgot again! Zaf brought two toy swords and a KENDO STICK! And Zati kept on holding to that thing!

We had hot Milo, watermelons, egg tarts and cream puffs for breakfast but I only ate watermelons 'cause I don't like tarts and cream puffs. Zaf, Anis and Zati had only a cup of Milo but I had three cups of Milo. Minutes after that, I had a spliting headache and I was a bit whooozzyyyy AND I had a stomachache!

I had to stay still to restrict any more pain than what I had that time. I've never been so weak and my vision was blurry. Wait no, there were flashes of black, grey and white. I sat down but I felt like puking. SO I rushed to the toilet and stayed there for a long time. While being in there, I almost passed out TWICE!! I was all sweaty, weak, in pain and nauseous.

Then it finally clicked to me that maybe JUST MAYBE that I was allergic to milk. Or dairy products. 'Cause I remember when I drink those uhh.. whaddya call that, uh, milked Milo? You get what I mean. Whenever I drink those, I ALWAYS have a stomachache! But Milo is like my FAVOURITE drink!! -_-" Cruel fate.

Then I went to the toilet once again and that stupid annoying stomachache was gone! Phew~ What a relief! 'Cause if I didn't, I wouldn't have enjoye eating Honey Garlic Chicken pizza and Garlic Breads that Zaf's mom ordered for us! Thank youuu!!

Then we were fooling around, playing the organ, took pictures of psycho killer-ish me, and... uh... we talked more. Anis went home around 4.30ish, Zati went about 5ish and I went about 5ish10. Wait HAHHAHAH there's no such thing as five ish ten. *flicks temple* It was fuuunn, is all I could say right now at 10.30pm. Yay~ Zaf's gonna bring the kendo stick tomorrow to school! And Anis the wig, hat and shawl! HAHAHA!

The time I got home, I went straight to my room and plopped to my bed, asleep... for an hour and a half. Maaan... Was so tired!

Labels:



1 Comment(s):

Post a Comment