You've got to stand for something or you'll fall for anything.
My feet are cold, but the coldness is harsher when they meet the tiles. My whole body is cold, but the scorching heat is unbearable to others. I am not sick however. Everything I touch and feel are cold to my senses. It could be of fasting without sahur, it could be of fasting without eating yesterday's sungkai and today's sahur. But I'm not fasting because I can't, still.- - -The room is empty like you are.
You came in looking for an answer to a question, but you realise now that it was never a question. It was merely a statement you have always wanted to confess.
You don’t need an answer, you need him.
Alone, sitting against a wall, you think that if you had swallowed your pride, as bitter as it was, got down on your knees and begged him not to go, maybe, just maybe --
You drum fingers against the wall before turning to face it.
You cup your hands around your mouth and whisper to it (not a secret, a declaration), I still love you, you confess. The words you should have said. You get onto your knees, and raise your voice. I still love you, you say, and it’s not a question.
You press your lips against the wall (not a kiss goodbye, never that), and his face flickers into view behind your eyelids then dulls like a dying flame.
The wall tastes like loss, abandonment and the slow gradual rusting of a heart.
Well.. that was decent for something written in less than half an hour. It felt different too, since it's the first to be inspired from real life experience. Uhuh I lack life.
I'll be going now because my tolerance towards dizziness might take its toll, and I might edit this post when ... I'm not feeling dizzy and weak, or I want to.
I is strong. I can take it - be it heartcrushing and whatnot. I can live through this smoothly.
I miss London - that place where no one knows who you are and where you can be whoever you want to be.
le pretty chandelier, ground floor of the old people's apartment we stayed in
second floor, near the stairs of Dickens' house.
those were 7-8 days of our breakfast and supper, and we lived through it without a grumbling stomach. :D I looove the instant noodle cup - the BIG blue/green one!
just outside our window. In the early morn', and the snow prettily(vocab of mah wurld, let me show you it) flew.
Don't y'all love lomo? I'm loving the lomography~
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Very funny, Scotty. Now beam down my clothes.
Oooh, tomorrow thirteen(english failz conscious right now because it took me five tries to correctly spell '13', so sp?) of us are visiting RBAF, out of 43. MY SPIDEY RACKET SENSE IS TINGLING.Remember my nephew who came over to my house? Howdydoo, his parents decided to drop by and see around. THAT -- THAT ADORABLE KID DID IT AGAIN!"Kaka Nabilah, why is that boy kissing that other boy? Kaka likes it kah?"OWH POOR POOR INNOCENT BOY. Kaka tak minat kat benda camtu, I lied. I would've held onto the kid and furiously rubbed my cheeks against his in response of repressed paedo love if it wasn't for his sister in the same room. Haha I kid about the pedo matter.Made me wonder though, if I actually like those things. I need to repent. 
NOT GAY
NOT GAY.
NOT GAY enough.
n-not gay.
NOT SCANDALOUS GAYS.
N-Not g-g-gay.
. . . .
NOT CHICKEN.I lol'd like a chicken.
Then my mouth caught a fly after two minutes and thirty six seconds of PURE AWESOME.
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I appreciate it that you still cooperate in the end but I would appreciate it better if you fuggin' put, at least, a tug on that crooked lips of yours. You treat your clients like shit, and throwing all the blames on us. You little witch! Just because you're quite an expert and you say you're "packed and busy" does not give you the fucking right to be bossy and bitchy on us. You work with a fucking smile on your fugly face, bitch.
Oh, and thanks for the tightening em up.
Mezz just shared another interesting story with me, and I promise you I will ROLL ON THE FLOOR LAUGHING MY ASS OFF when I see him, and I will not give a damn of staring passers-by. MWAHAHHA.
Zati went a tad screw loose and I like it. "Why's it so hot? Oh because you so hot bebeh" Then I touch your hand and seduce you with wiggling my eyebrows. And oh how you caved to my seduction, touching my hand in response. I turned and laughed because I am so awesome in seducing my own "son". Oh son, let not this forbidden love become a barrier between us. =3= HAHAHAHAH dude, I like you. A lot.
I never regretted having you in front of me, controlling your limbs and arms like my own robot toy. Ahh that was when we were in Primary 4 Blue. You sexy thang, you seduced me with your boo-tee-pool drawings. Since then on I bullied you and we became closer.
Four years later, you've shown the light. Shown me true happiness. You introduced me to shonenai. Oh oh oh how my heart beats for you so fast. HAHAHH dude you made me read a 18+ rated SasuNaru fic, I love you. I even had the name of the fic written in my secret book of sekreett, aka the HSBC diary 2006 book. hahaha ahh memories.
Ehh uh.. sidetracked.
Man this is one ugly post. Nada lagi pictures to "prettify" it.
And I just realised during the ten or so years of our friendship and our secret incestuous relationship between father and son, we never really took pictures together. ada pulang satu tapi... kami dua2 bida hahaha. I lap you, ho. You were the only person who knew me, the person who can actually cheer me up without me asking for it, the one I actually trust, my true gay gushing bud, my mentor.
You complete me. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAA MATEY LESBIAN BANAR EH.
There's no special occasion. It's not even your birthday. Bukan jua anniversary tani but I just felt like wanting to show everyone how much you mean to me, ho. Never once did I think someone like you would forever be in me my life.
Hm.. I have a feeling that you will do something unexpected but I expect jua.
Prediction A - you respond in a gay way too, making kissy faces to me so that I could smack your face with my clammy palms.
Prediction B - you smack me "virtually" via msn. And back in school, you'd stare at me with the ludicrous face ever and make "granny" curious of what I did. Then shrug it off and talk about gays more and songs and Big Bang anf Tae Young and how it's evident there's something going between Harvey Dent and Batman, Batman and Joker. The stares from Harvey to Batman, and Bruce to Harvey. Hmmm... SIDETRACKED AGAIN.
ani masa di London in our apartment room. Despite that time was summer masih ada jua snow. Apanah kami buat? Menyakai lah - apalagi urang di kiri ah(not me). I think she took around twentysomething pictures of the snow hitting her face and her camera. She doesnt care! Pasal ia sakai.
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I'm happy. I've been in a good mood. The ketam masak kari did do me good. Very luscious, meaty and it came in a large package. Awesoommme (Y). But my brother played the 30 days of night DVD so uh, the grotesque gore killed the moment I had with my ketam masak kari. [caresses the bowl of crabs]
Plans for tonight : Finish up the characterisation table, and the essay on motherhood on D. Copperfield. Check fandoms. Eat. Stare at the empty spaces in my room. Oh, and plot an ambush on the enemy. (No cold blooded shit-coloured reptilians should live! I'll squash them and impale them on satay sticks, then grill them. Oh, sweet revenge. [throws fist into the air])I finally have pictures on this blog. Grrrrhh.Labels: daily life, pictures, random crap
My MSN contacts must've been wondering why yesterday my nick was a bit threatening.
The next person to ask how I'm doing will be either castrated or blocked.
That was it wasn't it? Something was amiss don't you think? And I went online late at night, around almost 11PM.
Story is...
My baby brother effed up my laptop and I couldn't get it running normally. Since 7 till 11 I was pissed and bored. My brother and my brother were victims of my snarky snappy attitude. bwahahaha. However I did something that I haven't done in a long long time!
I slept! And became so... vain! And I slept!
And here are the pictures~
Honestly, when I PS-ed this one I had numerous toilet breaks 'cause it freaked me out.
Oh have I told you guys I got a haircut after this?
Hellew, down below is my hair. As in before it was cut.
AND PEEKABOO! HAHAHAHAHA!! Now that is what I qualify to be FREAKISHLY FUNNY.
Then I cut it. VOILA! XD XD
This one's a random one. This was days taken before the hollies and if I'm not mistaken Mush took this.
Okay. I lie. Again. I bet by this time you blodders might lose trust in me. But I don't mind. I won't be depressed because of that. 'Cause I have almost a lifetime supply of gay fics, videos, news. And I'm glad that the veterans are generous.
So the lie was I didn't cut my hair. I just wanted to show you the freakishly funny picture with a plot.
Labels: bored, Brain not working well: A great time for randomness, holiday, pictures
le pretty chandelier, ground floor of the old people's apartment we stayed in
NOT GAY
NOT GAY.
NOT GAY enough.
NOT SCANDALOUS GAYS.
N-Not g-g-gay.
. . . .
Honestly, when I PS-ed this one I had numerous toilet breaks 'cause it freaked me out.
Oh have I told you guys I got a haircut after this?
Then I cut it. VOILA! XD XD
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