Good evening~
Not much had happened today. Nothing worth to be reminisced at the moment, but well for a few scenes of today are worth it.
I haven't updated my blog even though I have 3 drafts in Blogger, and all of 'em are meant to be longish. I've been busy these days so at nighttime I'm always continuing the draft and halfway through(or less) my eyes drooped and I soon fell asleep. I only wake up around after midnight but then I would be too sleepy to continue writing. So I saved the draft for later continuation.
Hmm, I was spose to say something after this. I had it in my mind. But now, I forgot. =.=
Ah. Right. I was asking if I've told Zati whether I told her of my latest eyecandy and one of the previous ones is now in blacklisted.
And I was coming up with some fantasy idea that the newest member of My Eyecandies is shortlisted. I really wanna talk to him.
This afternoon I had the chance. No one was there to bother me or so to say to distract me by unwillingly be my victim of excessive fangirliness. Anyway, I saw - hmm what should I codename him? "Nuai"? Cause he reaaallyy looks like my cousin(who's also hot) - Nuai during lunch time and Si Songkok - well since he cut his hair and doesn't wear his songkok again but still! :p - and I was talking to Jong and she's gonna leave me all alone next week and more.
She said something about her card not being finished or something else. She's a punk. But a cool punk. I like her hair. Her long soft shiny fringe is highlighted green and few are in gold or light brown. Really nice. (Y)
Anyway back to whole point of this.
While I was listening to Jong Yee Ling talking I was looking at random directions around the GDL's. Jong and I were at the rebel's line. So many people were passing back and fro, some were blocking the way, some slowed down the traffic, some sat in the middle of the general pathway and most, with common sense and wit, were at the sides not disrupting the human congestion.
ANYWAY...
Nuff of description.
As I looked around at random directions, I found myself absentmidedly glancing at Si Songkok's direction but twas not in every second I could find.
A satisfied smile crept unto my face when I saw Manhunt, buying a drink from the goddamned vending machine, and as I was also listening to Jong I looked like one of those toys where its head goes round and round while nodding. It's weird.
I looked away when Manhunt turned to my general direction. Then the luckiest thing happened to me~
As I turned away I absentmindedly, again, looked at Yu-- Si Songkok. He was looking at me.
His new hairstyle - short, neat and typically stereotyped to be one of the famous footballers' hairdo - made the smile before to become much more... wider and teethy.
Masses of people somehow made like a frame of him for me to watch him more intensely. And those masses were just a total blur to mine eyes. All I could see were blurs of white, black and purple. And the perfect lighting shone on him.
His dark beady eyes defiantly, boldly, audaciously, unflinchingly and other derivatives that could match his daring attitude that time, felt as if went through my soul and read my thoughts like a simple children's book. His boyish looks more fervent in what way? I'm not sure. But I could sense his confidence, boldness as he looked. Arms knotted across his chest, his lips curved in that desire-endowed smirk. If it wan't for the pillar beside me my legs would've been jelly and I'd fall in a clumsy oof.
Thus right now I'm listening to She Want Revenge's Tear You Apart. I kinda think that the beat of the song suits that very moment. *nosebleed*
His back straight and long, his head slightly high up in the air to give a sense of his cute arrogance, his whole being looked ever so desirable, wanted, needed, craved for. Like in the lyrics of the said song 'I wanna fucking tear you apart'. And oh god, have I not have the great constraint to not faint and hit my head onto the longkang.
All happened so slowly that I thought time gave me a chance to look at him better. But no, I was plainly being fangirly that I thought that Si Songkok was staring at me for a long time. It all happened in a mere second, and yet I could come up with a page worth of ardent descriptions.
Rab had told me some tips on how to start a friendship before going long.
She told me to smile at him, and he smiled back then tis a good sign to move frontward.
I had my chance to spark that onset of "friendship". But that time my gears in my mind suddenly became hard and unmoving. My eyes and focus was mainly on his sexy boyish smirk. I could've fainted yo. FAINTED~
It wouldn't be me if I didn't at the very least grin while hiding it. And I did. Jong noticed. So did some few others that I didn't know. I lied to her saying that I saw something which reminded me of something funny. Gah. That's a pathetic lie, but it's excusable in my situation, right? No? Ah well.
After thinking about it since I just couldn't get rid of the image of him directly staring at me. At the very thought of it sends me shivers and feels almost... I felt like a missing piece after all these years finally put back to its rightful place. HAH! Cheesy much~
His boyish charms are his good points. Very very good points. I know that there are other girls and/or guys who takes a fancy towards Si Songkok - okay, let's chanhe his name since he doesn't even wear one now. Wait we call him "pretty square boy" right? Okay then, we're stikcing to that for now.
Well that was one of the two things I wanted to tell about this "afternoon". The said above are pre-Socio events while the things I will say for now would be post-Socio class events. So forth I go...
After Socio class I knew there won't be a lot of the GDL's since a big majority of them went to the Mall. They said it was to "release all their stress and worries". Riiiggggghhhttt.
So the ones who didn't and couldn't come were Mush, Lei, Dzar, Zimah, Fuad, Yazid and that's all I could think of.
I couldn't come because I had a dentist appointment. Zimah couldn't come because she had Maths till 3. The others... I don't know.
Around 2.30ish I sat DL and was alone in the heaps and dunps of bags. Dzar went BL with her bf. Lei went to his friends. Mush was wandering around. Fuad behind the flats. Yazid actually made me tpo jaga his things while he went sembahyang-ing. So practically I was alone. I couldn't care less, really. You know why? :D
Because "Nuai" was practically in front of me. He sat the edge of the longkang, his back facing me. I thought to myself whether he was a bit... antisocial.
Since he sat a little bit of distance away from his friends, so I figured that he might be antisocial or he just loooveeess to sit near a pillar. Just like me~ XDD
Oh! And just after Socio class I went to DL I was just looked lost and... directcionless? Don't mind the bad vocab. It's 2.30 am right now. I just finished talking with Munir and Fakhri who went to the Mall to "release their stress and worries" then after they left I was standing in front of the pathway, looking at random directions. The exit and entrance of the library. The V-bench. RC. Rebel's line. DL. The staffroom. The clouds. The trees. But then when I found out that that was a good time for me to take a glance at Nuai, as I turned to him he immediately looked away.
He was standing also. Near the exit of the library. He was with his friend, but I couldn't see his friend as he was blocked by the pillar. So when I looked at him, he instantly swiftly moved his eyes to the left as if he was only looking around. But I know. Because I do that myself. HA.
Sooo does that mean he knows that I like him and he started to look at me? Or was he just sooo bored that his eyes were casted to the only moving object he could see then averting them as soon as I turned to him, thinking that he was staring at me intently but actually his mind was a total blank and yeah.
But if it's either one of that, I don't wanna know. I've been depressed by one of the ex-eyecandies. So I need something to cheer me up. Thus I wanna believe that Nuai was actually looking at me as he started to notice me, since that first day we came to contact. Well barely but still.
He gave me his candy wrapper. It was empty, though. But the sweet was in his mouth. I took it since one of his friends was shoving it around, not wanting it. While to Rabs, I absentmindedly played with empty wrapper. He noticed it.
Nuai was two people away from me, and between us were Rabs and Marwan, and the latter being at his side. I fiddled around with the plastic and he poked his head out and looked at me Rabs then me them to my hands which held his candy wrapper.
And if my eyes weren't lying I thought I saw a flash of red spread scross his face. Cute~!! XDD
So when I went home at 3 I took m things and went to mom's car. But I forgot mu camera! gaaahhh... So I went back to DL and took my camera. I peeped to the exit of the library since he was there, sitting with his friend. When I took a peek, he was looking at me. I wanted to smile but my mind couldn't register and yet another case of braincramp. Shit.
I took my camera then left, grinning. His gaze was still hot in my mind. I couldn't forget it. I don't want to tell the others about it as they might TEASE me for god's sake. I told some GDLs that I like Pretty Square Boy and as he passed by Munir cunningly took a picture of him with my camera and I still have the picture. :]]]]]
So that's done. i still like to talk loads of crap in here. But hey, it's still an update right? HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. :D I love my eyecandies for cheering me up~ Labels: Brain not working well: A great time for randomness, eyecandy excitement, it's 2 am, just woken up
It rained today. I guess this month's the start of the rainy season.I don't quite remember if I posted this this before but I feel happy and giddy when it rains. So I was happy today.Dad dropped me off at the same yet different spot behind the library. Dean I didn't see. Neither "Si Songkok".I came in the class with a smile on me then sat down. I'm not sure if my eyes are playing with me but I think that most of the registration..mates... looked at my different expression. Usually I come in with a scowl, a blank face or anxious.*JM did his work again as soon as he steps in the class. I came earlier than JM for the first time in a looong time. From my smiling face, when I saw JM coming in, my smile widened to a sheepish grin that Yee Ping and Jasmine only saw that time. HAHA.He's VERY SHY. Let's see what I experienced from him!
1) I found him smiling every morning when he came into his class. cute.
2) He sometimes would look our (my friends and I's) direction sheepishly. cute.
3) When I almost fell down once, he (although doing his work) turned to see if I fell. cute(?).
4) When I was ascending the stairs and he descending, he happened to stand above me. He turned and walked away while scratching his cheek sheepishly. CUTE MAN.
5) This morning when he was on his way to class, I was in front of him again, and our destination the same. He walked PAST his class and Emerson had to call out to him LOL. He looked so embarrassed asking Emerson: isn't it...that class? I was trying hard not to smile >.<>
The purple bit is this quote I took from Joanna's blog. And awwww~ I have to agree with her 200% that JM being a baka is theeee cutest thing EVER!!! [insert rabid fangirl squeal]
Sally, for the record, was inside my registration room! She said that she awnted to witness my stalking and fangirliness over JM. HAHAHA. What a friend she is.'
Then after many times taking peeps of JM from time to time I noticed that Ren Ji likes to stare~ Hah, like wooooowwww... uhuh.
Well anyway after registration I packed up my things and normally went out of class. Sa'aadah was at my front. I thought that Syai was behind me since Sa'aadah was avoiding looking at my back but... it was someone else.
I still thought it was Syai so I couldn't care less if our bags or our bodies hit each other or even our skin touched. But when we did hit each other again I wanted to say sorry but when I glanced to my back it was JM!!! IT WAS HIM ALL THAT TIME!!! US, HAVING OUR BODIES AND SKIN TOUCH!!! OMFGOMFGOMFG!!! *spazzes out*
Siiigh. Life can be very unpredictable. It was the longest record that him and I were sooo close together. HAHA! Dream ooonnn. *slaps self* LOL. That reminds me of NewS' and KAT-TUN's backstage of Summary concert where Kusano and Pi were being soo cutely silly and... Kusapi-ish.
They said something like 'I know this is awkward but I like you!!'. LOLOLOLL OMG!! I love those pair!
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PS. I guess that since it rained I was outside the library, DL.
At first, wanted to do my Maths hw outside but then since Diyana said to 'dangani' her inside. So as a result I was inside partly revising Maths and partly... talking with Diyana. HAHA.
Maths. Oooohh the paaaainn~!!
HAH. Like WTH. Over reacting much?
Ah yeah the maths test on Series. *glares* I reeeally wanted to die! I did very badly. Especially the hard ones. Guh. Now I know that Series, GP and AP, is my weak point. Hm, I think I need to discuss about having tuition with momma. HAH. 'Momma'.
And oh oh!! When it was break time Mush, Nadia and I were still in the Maths block. I went first then Mush who followed suit then Nadia. Upon passing this certain class(i can't remember which room though) Mush pulled my bag strap. I wondered if he was being playful or what not. But...
As I stopped since Mush pulled me MANHUNT came out of that room. And he was in front of me~ HHAHAHA OMG! Mush you rock! You understand me!! Siiiigh. If it was
Break. Twas inside room 008 for Lit later. And I honestly can't remember what happened. Oooohhh... Since Zati reminded me of the Break Incident so I edited this post~Well anyway during break Zaf had to go to the toilet. I suggested the toilet below room 123 since it was the cleanest of all. Or one of the two cleanest. To get to there Zaf, Zat and I had to push ourselves through the buzzing crowd between room 008 and this lab, the one with the lockers. We managed though but hated it.
Zati was left behind since she was busy reading All Things Apart 'cause it was our homework. I was talking with Zaf but then... as we passed by I saw JM!!!!! JM for god's sake!! Like how many is the chance of you getting to see him if you're not in any of his classes!! omgomgomgomg He was there next to a pillar~ Then I saw Faiz too. Hmm... He's grown big, strong and very built. I was amazed.
So as me, I gripped on Zaf's free arm and squeezed it in an iron grip, then scurried into the toilet while thanking Zaf for wanting to go to the toilet~ HAHAHAHAHHAHA!! OH MY GOD!!
Zaf went in a cubicle, I went out and stood beside Zati who was still avidly reading the African-written book. Then she was my victim of the fangirliness. I pinched her, she swatted my hand. Then I peeked at JM and saw Faiz staring at us. HAHAHA. Must be weirded out or something.
Juts when JM was busy reading something "Si Songkok" passed by~ Hi "Si Songkok"~!!
Well he did glanced at us then went to the long walk path behind and at the side of the library. Zati is bllliiinnnnddd!! I told her who "Si Songkok" was but she couldn't see him! Guuuh... When "Si Songkok" passed by Munir was there with him! So aku tagur ia lah. And that was why "Si Songkok" looked at us.
But still... he did looked. I wanted to tell Zaf that Munir passed by but I didn't have the stomach to and besides what's so important about that anyway~? Then we went back to class without any human trafiic congestion things. AND THAT IS THE ONLY THING I WANTED TO EDIT ABOUT!! BYYEEE~!!
ELit. We had a test on Chapter 3 of All Things Apart and it wasn't really a test since the whole class answered it together aloud. Then Mr Peter read through chapter 4 till 5.
OMG I think I'm in love with the book! The writing style is just the same style that I love! Simple and yet I don't know. It's just captivating to me.
Then we were told to read 20 pages of chapter 6 till 7 or 8. Then we would have a test on Sat. I hope to remember to read it and do well.
During our free time Mr Peter started the whole yam topic which spread feverishly on our side thus we couldn't stop talking about yam which grew to be sweet potatos in Supa Save and Hua Ho then to KFC's mashed potato and fries. Ohhh my god. We made ourselves water just bu talking about them. Nyum~
EAS. 'Twas slightly okay-ish. We had presentations on the adverts we have and assess why it's like and blah blah nothing interesting.
Sufi was gone. I heard from Jing Yi that he wasn't going so since I didn't really catch up what sh said I kept quiet and had those questions marks over my head.
But that won't change the fact that I dislike EAS from the heart. Although it hasn't reach to the 'hate' level. Nyeh.
Lunch. Spent with no one particular. Zimah was doing her work which was sposed to be due around 7.30 am. HAH. It was lunch!! At noon! Siiigh. Zimah, zimah. Then in front of her was "Si Songkok". XD I like his quiet and cool attitude. I guess that's why I'm falling for him. Well at least I THINK that I am falling for him.
I tried to look up at him but something inside me restrained to do so. I wonder why? After Zimah left for her 12.30-3pm Maths class I stood near the vending machine and "Si Songkok" passed by me very closely. *major squeal* Minutes later I went inside the library, waiting till it's 1.
Socio. I mostly fell asleep. Had a writing excersise to write. Yeeaahh... Not many people came. HAH. We still prefer Mr John Simmonds. He's better at teaching, unlike Miss Jules. She makes me sleep.
After school. Saw Dean at GDLs. *grin* I wanted to go there but I knew no one that I was close to, so I stood yet again near the vending machine. Waited till it was 2.14 for dad to pick me up. He constantly looked at me then back to the talker then back at me. Heee. :D
Then went home.
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I was sposed to come at Utama Bowling around 3.30 but I came late at almost 4. -_-" I'm sorry Zafirah for holding up the game! But at the moment I stepped in I immediately saw Dean there! So he takes Bowling too eh?
Turns that I constantly suck at bowling ang he's daym good at it. I was distracted when I played. Because of him. >.<
Siigh. Oh my god. I just realised now that when it was Dean's turn, I kept on staring at how his muscles flexed and how graceful his posture was. Oh my god. He was daayyymm good!! I sucked in bowling. The only I hit the pins was when Zaf and Fiza knew of Dean so they made jokes to loosen me up.
Went at about 5 and ordered KFC. I was robbed! I paid for every food I ordered but my mashed potatoes weren't there! TT.TT
Ate cheesy wedges, fries and jelly icecream. Cheesy wedges rocks!
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I wonder what time is Music Station karang? Eh? The time isn't shown in Astro! WTH!! Then when the hell is it then??
Labels: amused..., confused, eyecandy excitement, just woken up
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