It rained today. I guess this month's the start of the rainy season.I don't quite remember if I posted this this before but I feel happy and giddy when it rains. So I was happy today.Dad dropped me off at the same yet different spot behind the library. Dean I didn't see. Neither "Si Songkok".I came in the class with a smile on me then sat down. I'm not sure if my eyes are playing with me but I think that most of the registration..mates... looked at my different expression. Usually I come in with a scowl, a blank face or anxious.*JM did his work again as soon as he steps in the class. I came earlier than JM for the first time in a looong time. From my smiling face, when I saw JM coming in, my smile widened to a sheepish grin that Yee Ping and Jasmine only saw that time. HAHA.He's VERY SHY. Let's see what I experienced from him!
1) I found him smiling every morning when he came into his class. cute.
2) He sometimes would look our (my friends and I's) direction sheepishly. cute.
3) When I almost fell down once, he (although doing his work) turned to see if I fell. cute(?).
4) When I was ascending the stairs and he descending, he happened to stand above me. He turned and walked away while scratching his cheek sheepishly. CUTE MAN.
5) This morning when he was on his way to class, I was in front of him again, and our destination the same. He walked PAST his class and Emerson had to call out to him LOL. He looked so embarrassed asking Emerson: isn't it...that class? I was trying hard not to smile >.<>
The purple bit is this quote I took from Joanna's blog. And awwww~ I have to agree with her 200% that JM being a baka is theeee cutest thing EVER!!! [insert rabid fangirl squeal]
Sally, for the record, was inside my registration room! She said that she awnted to witness my stalking and fangirliness over JM. HAHAHA. What a friend she is.'
Then after many times taking peeps of JM from time to time I noticed that Ren Ji likes to stare~ Hah, like wooooowwww... uhuh.
Well anyway after registration I packed up my things and normally went out of class. Sa'aadah was at my front. I thought that Syai was behind me since Sa'aadah was avoiding looking at my back but... it was someone else.
I still thought it was Syai so I couldn't care less if our bags or our bodies hit each other or even our skin touched. But when we did hit each other again I wanted to say sorry but when I glanced to my back it was JM!!! IT WAS HIM ALL THAT TIME!!! US, HAVING OUR BODIES AND SKIN TOUCH!!! OMFGOMFGOMFG!!! *spazzes out*
Siiigh. Life can be very unpredictable. It was the longest record that him and I were sooo close together. HAHA! Dream ooonnn. *slaps self* LOL. That reminds me of NewS' and KAT-TUN's backstage of Summary concert where Kusano and Pi were being soo cutely silly and... Kusapi-ish.
They said something like 'I know this is awkward but I like you!!'. LOLOLOLL OMG!! I love those pair!
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PS. I guess that since it rained I was outside the library, DL.
At first, wanted to do my Maths hw outside but then since Diyana said to 'dangani' her inside. So as a result I was inside partly revising Maths and partly... talking with Diyana. HAHA.
Maths. Oooohh the paaaainn~!!
HAH. Like WTH. Over reacting much?
Ah yeah the maths test on Series. *glares* I reeeally wanted to die! I did very badly. Especially the hard ones. Guh. Now I know that Series, GP and AP, is my weak point. Hm, I think I need to discuss about having tuition with momma. HAH. 'Momma'.
And oh oh!! When it was break time Mush, Nadia and I were still in the Maths block. I went first then Mush who followed suit then Nadia. Upon passing this certain class(i can't remember which room though) Mush pulled my bag strap. I wondered if he was being playful or what not. But...
As I stopped since Mush pulled me MANHUNT came out of that room. And he was in front of me~ HHAHAHA OMG! Mush you rock! You understand me!! Siiiigh. If it was
Break. Twas inside room 008 for Lit later. And I honestly can't remember what happened. Oooohhh... Since Zati reminded me of the Break Incident so I edited this post~Well anyway during break Zaf had to go to the toilet. I suggested the toilet below room 123 since it was the cleanest of all. Or one of the two cleanest. To get to there Zaf, Zat and I had to push ourselves through the buzzing crowd between room 008 and this lab, the one with the lockers. We managed though but hated it.
Zati was left behind since she was busy reading All Things Apart 'cause it was our homework. I was talking with Zaf but then... as we passed by I saw JM!!!!! JM for god's sake!! Like how many is the chance of you getting to see him if you're not in any of his classes!! omgomgomgomg He was there next to a pillar~ Then I saw Faiz too. Hmm... He's grown big, strong and very built. I was amazed.
So as me, I gripped on Zaf's free arm and squeezed it in an iron grip, then scurried into the toilet while thanking Zaf for wanting to go to the toilet~ HAHAHAHAHHAHA!! OH MY GOD!!
Zaf went in a cubicle, I went out and stood beside Zati who was still avidly reading the African-written book. Then she was my victim of the fangirliness. I pinched her, she swatted my hand. Then I peeked at JM and saw Faiz staring at us. HAHAHA. Must be weirded out or something.
Juts when JM was busy reading something "Si Songkok" passed by~ Hi "Si Songkok"~!!
Well he did glanced at us then went to the long walk path behind and at the side of the library. Zati is bllliiinnnnddd!! I told her who "Si Songkok" was but she couldn't see him! Guuuh... When "Si Songkok" passed by Munir was there with him! So aku tagur ia lah. And that was why "Si Songkok" looked at us.
But still... he did looked. I wanted to tell Zaf that Munir passed by but I didn't have the stomach to and besides what's so important about that anyway~? Then we went back to class without any human trafiic congestion things. AND THAT IS THE ONLY THING I WANTED TO EDIT ABOUT!! BYYEEE~!!
ELit. We had a test on Chapter 3 of All Things Apart and it wasn't really a test since the whole class answered it together aloud. Then Mr Peter read through chapter 4 till 5.
OMG I think I'm in love with the book! The writing style is just the same style that I love! Simple and yet I don't know. It's just captivating to me.
Then we were told to read 20 pages of chapter 6 till 7 or 8. Then we would have a test on Sat. I hope to remember to read it and do well.
During our free time Mr Peter started the whole yam topic which spread feverishly on our side thus we couldn't stop talking about yam which grew to be sweet potatos in Supa Save and Hua Ho then to KFC's mashed potato and fries. Ohhh my god. We made ourselves water just bu talking about them. Nyum~
EAS. 'Twas slightly okay-ish. We had presentations on the adverts we have and assess why it's like and blah blah nothing interesting.
Sufi was gone. I heard from Jing Yi that he wasn't going so since I didn't really catch up what sh said I kept quiet and had those questions marks over my head.
But that won't change the fact that I dislike EAS from the heart. Although it hasn't reach to the 'hate' level. Nyeh.
Lunch. Spent with no one particular. Zimah was doing her work which was sposed to be due around 7.30 am. HAH. It was lunch!! At noon! Siiigh. Zimah, zimah. Then in front of her was "Si Songkok". XD I like his quiet and cool attitude. I guess that's why I'm falling for him. Well at least I THINK that I am falling for him.
I tried to look up at him but something inside me restrained to do so. I wonder why? After Zimah left for her 12.30-3pm Maths class I stood near the vending machine and "Si Songkok" passed by me very closely. *major squeal* Minutes later I went inside the library, waiting till it's 1.
Socio. I mostly fell asleep. Had a writing excersise to write. Yeeaahh... Not many people came. HAH. We still prefer Mr John Simmonds. He's better at teaching, unlike Miss Jules. She makes me sleep.
After school. Saw Dean at GDLs. *grin* I wanted to go there but I knew no one that I was close to, so I stood yet again near the vending machine. Waited till it was 2.14 for dad to pick me up. He constantly looked at me then back to the talker then back at me. Heee. :D
Then went home.
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I was sposed to come at Utama Bowling around 3.30 but I came late at almost 4. -_-" I'm sorry Zafirah for holding up the game! But at the moment I stepped in I immediately saw Dean there! So he takes Bowling too eh?
Turns that I constantly suck at bowling ang he's daym good at it. I was distracted when I played. Because of him. >.<
Siigh. Oh my god. I just realised now that when it was Dean's turn, I kept on staring at how his muscles flexed and how graceful his posture was. Oh my god. He was daayyymm good!! I sucked in bowling. The only I hit the pins was when Zaf and Fiza knew of Dean so they made jokes to loosen me up.
Went at about 5 and ordered KFC. I was robbed! I paid for every food I ordered but my mashed potatoes weren't there! TT.TT
Ate cheesy wedges, fries and jelly icecream. Cheesy wedges rocks!
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I wonder what time is Music Station karang? Eh? The time isn't shown in Astro! WTH!! Then when the hell is it then??
Labels: amused..., confused, eyecandy excitement, just woken up
Hello~!!Today is a veerryyy good good day. =]Today morning before the registration the day was kinda...gloomy. "Cause it drizzled a bit this morn. I think. I couldn't remember. Well anyway, as usual my dad dropped me off behind the library and walked through the...walkpath...? Whatever. Not the point.There's this bench beside the library shelves packed with some people right? And I knew one of the guys standing. He was, I could say, cute. His name I won't tell.This happens all the time when I come to school through that way.It was either his friend or him that's gonna look directly at me. At first I thought that they were looking at someone else but I looked behind but no one was particularly behind me. I was like 'Okaaay... Why? Do I have something on me?' or once I thought 'OMG. Did I wear the wrong skirt? CRAP!! DID I??'HAHA. Anyway, this morn was different. He greeted me 'morning'~ I looked up to see his face and my mouth was being lazy to say anything, instead I smiled and nodded in acknowledgement. I was grinning all the way to my class.I mean cmon. How many times in your life can you have a cute/hot guy say that to you and only you?? huh? Right? A lucky morning.*Thwn when I went to class, still grinning btw, my eyecandy aka JM was walking to the class too~ Except that me and him went from opposite directions. I wanted to accidentally dropped my files so he could help me BUT Sin Yee had to come out of the room and stopped me.She asked for my Maths homework and we ended up talking and I missed bumping to JM. TT.TT Why Sin Yee? Whhhyyy???After we finished talking I went in.the room. His back towards mine. He sat near the window doing his work. I placed my bag down and my files then sat down. But can't sonce Joanna sat on it first. -_-Minutes after I suddenly remembered about my camera!! It was with Zimah! And I brought the batt charger!! Then after I could go forth with my plan~ *rubs hands like a freaky mad scientist*I MCed Zimah then msged her. But the 0.05c was a waste since Zimah MCed me just when I pressed the send button. T.TI zoomed out of the room, searching for my dear dear camera! Then I saw Fikah with ZImah, who had my camera. I took the camera nd they followed to my registration class! I went to my bag and dug deep in it to find the batt charger. It was my chance!The plan was: Since JM sits very near the power socket and I desperately needed to charge the battery so you know, I went to the socket and played innocent as in the attitude where that doesn't much of my staggering-and-flailing personality. I just played it 'Hm? Who are you again? Sorry I just can't remember.'Then I tried the socket but the plug wont fit the socket!! Grhh.. I was frustrated after like 6 times of attempts. I gave it to Zimah who got the same result. Then I surrendered.While doing so I noticed that Ren Ji was staring at me then whispering things to JM. Then I grew paranoid and allll these assumptions came straight to my head.1) He could've noticed about my stalker-ish-ness...2) He must've been whispering bad things about the plug3) He wasn't actually talking about me to JMOMG.*I had my PS after the registration. Then I hung out with Diyana. 'Twas fun. She rarely is seen around the library. So it was another change of scene.But I did my Maths and Dii was doing some revision on her GP or Geo. IDK. It was something connected to soil erosion and rain exceeding the limit of the soil and stuff.*Had Maths. Was being moody. I didn't know why. I just came in the room like that. Maybe it's beacuse I didn't see JM otw. Siiigh.*Break? Can't recall again.*Elit. We watched a few minutes of The Last King of Scotland. I loved the movie! Well I anticipaed for it when, I think, Star World showed the preview last year~The young Scot doctor Nicholas was acted by the same guy who was the Faun in Narnia and the same guy who acted as this person in this movie I've wactched before.I had to agree with Zati that he DOES have pretty eyes~The DVD contained light sex scenes. Wasn't affected by it though. And yet I heard some people in the class making disgusted noises and grunts.But the DVD sucked! It stopped almost every few minutes! It just RUNIED the whole atmosphere. Siiigh. Mr Peter said that he'll find a replacement so we could watch it sans interruptions.*EAS. We still haven't done our debate. Miss Zari said it'll be on Monday. Hah! Speaker-bashing time postponed.Instead we did our work where we didn't do. The Buddy extract and the apple ads. I finished my apple ad. For the first time I actually FINISHED my EAS work. HAH.So I had to do my Buddy thing. Ceh. I'm partnered with Eric/k. Geehhh... I'm one of the two girls in EAS who's partnered with a guy. At least the other girl coughZimahcough is partnered with someone she knows coughcoughSuficough.So Miss Zari told me to go to the guy's side and sit with them. Gehh...I asked Eric which task I was spose to do. And I got the hard part. Damn you Eric.I was constantly distracted from my work by Jeremy, Khalid, Sufi and Zimah. They were talking about random stuffs.*Lunch. Was with Zimah as far as I can remember. Then my body was being harassed by Fuad. NOT sexually. Later then was harassed by Fakhri and Mush. TT.TTI hate my overly sensitive body! Was fighting with Fuad. A battle to see who's fast. And it showed that after the long cries of battle and overboard-ing back strecthes and injured fingers, that I was worth to be called champion of the fast-reacting fingers.Amidst that victory I just realised that we fought in front of the CCTV. -_-""And I did mention that I applied for prefect. And if they see the fight and they can recognise me from there, I won't have a chance. Dx*Then JM came~ He came with his huge orange piece of a hunchback~I stood around with Mush, Izni, Wardah and Marwan when he passed us by. Everyone in the circle was quiet and had that inquisitve looks. Then they saw me, looking down and my body was practicall shaking!!And Izni as the physical witness! She felt my arms and shoulders and she said that I shook. >____<Before this Dzar told me that he's in her class too. Along with Sally and Wardah. ACtually Wardah has 2 classes with him! Arrgghhh.... I ssooo would give anything to have that privelege!Anyway he passed by and I know for a fact that he NEVER goes much less passes the library! So he was there. He put his bag down near the guy's corner of shelves outside the libraby. Then he disappeared behind the pillar. I peeked at him once in a while. Then he walked around as if "looking for someone".He walked back and forth and soon he met up with Emerson and talked with him a bit and I saw when they talked still JM was hidden behind the pillars, Emerson looked at me as if notifying JM of I was staring at him. Ghhh.. Not good.Then he left. And JM appeared. He passed by and talked with his other Chinese friends. I either thank god that we were near them or his group was near us.I noticed that Aaron was at the exit of the library with these two guys. And I also noticed that he was looking at me and my reaction. He knows actually. That I like JM. I think that he was rather interested in observing my reactions. I brushed that off for a while.When it was 1 I knew I had Socio so I had to zoom. But since JM was still there I wanted to spend a bit of time with his presence around me. I waited till it was 1.05... then I went. I scooped my bag and files up from the floor and went slowly. Rab was there with me. And she was with Marwan. And they were there to witness something.I hyperventilated and vibrated.Yeah. I did. And I think I heard one of them told me that I looked pale and my lips were quivering so much.By the time I left I only saw spots of monochrome lights everywhere. I wanted to faint right then when JM and I were horizontally aligned. But not our faces have met.I went slowly to my Socio class sans feeling afraid if Mr Simmonds was gonna be pissed about me being late. By the time I got to the class. I saw no one.Then it struck me. We dont have Socio classes in the afternoon with Mr Simmonds. So thinking that that could be my chance to see my JM again~ I skipped. JM was heading for his class or so I thought he was. SO I wanted to give chase of him I ran for the stairs. When I got to the stairs HE was there!!FYI he NEVER passes those stairs!! NEVER!!!So I was like... Why now? Why did he take those stairs? Better yet he doesnt have classes here so why is he here?With my mind I quickly assumed stuffs. So I was grinning like a fool. I didn't o down the stairs instead I stopped at the first step down. I wanted to look back but I couldn't so I busied myself with searching for something in my files. HAH. Then I got the courage to follow him behind.But when I did, he was there too!! He went back to the stairs! So I rushed down the stairs and to the DL. HAHAHA!! I looked back and didn't see him. So I thought that my assumptions was proven wrong.However minutes later he was there!! RIght behind me!! Then he put his bag down beside the vending machine. And talked with another group of his Chinese friends. I had no victim of my fangirl slash stalker excitedness. So I stood alone, grinning from ear to ear.Then Sa'aadah came! And she was my victim! HAHAHAH. She suffered from my hittings and punches. Later then I told her the whole story in whispers.She assumed the same thing as me.Then JM went inside the library. I only noticed 20 minutes after. So I decided to go in with Sa'aadah to accompany me. When I first stepped inside [i know this might sound cheesy but...] my eyes and his were locked for a brief second but I looked away to make it not seem obvious that I liked him.Sa'aadah and I hid at the back of the library. Then Aaron came in and saw me peeping through the spaces between books to look at JM. He was curious and asked me for his name. After a few times avoiding him and the subject I gave in and answered him. He then introduced himself to Sa'aadah. Then we talked a bit about JM.Then he offered himself to ask JM about whatever that is I wanted to know. But a.that.m I couldn't think straight. So he went to JM and sat opposite him. I was peeping throught the empty spaces mentioned and looked at how JM reacted at how Aaron suddenly talked to him and such.Then Aaron left a confused slash surprised JM. I went out after a few more people went. Then I searched for him. Then he told me the irrelevant stuffs and the things I already know about him.*Around 2.30 he went out the library and he PASSED BY near me!!!! LIKE JUST 10 INCHES APART!!!!!!!!!!!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!I looked at him as he looked at me. Then the moment came. I said 'Hey.' to him. And I think he noticed that I was blushing madly 'cause why would he smile at me in reaction??? HUH?? WHY??? Well maybe there might be another reason. But screw them.he smiled at me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!My eyes looked to the floor and I hyperventilated. Mush was in front of me. He saw the whole scenario. *grins* He wanted to laugh I think.I froze at the spot. And waited till JM wasn't behind me. I had my camera with me but I couldn't hav the guts to take pictures of him. He was too daaamnnn close!!Then he went home. I was with Sa'aadah, Fa-gay-na, Tuty and Kamilah. They saw my reaction. Mush went away. He's wise to avoid my fangirlyness.He placed his bag on the bench under the tree. Fa-gay-na knows that I like him. So she taunted me that she will tell him that I like him. I agreed on it, thinking that she might be joking. But noooooooo!!! She wasn't! She went with Tuty and I fled into the library. But they didn't really tagured him at all. Siiiigh. Thank god. Then he went home~ Bye bye!-------------------------Okay to not make this entry too JM-centric, Id just add a few things like this guy for instance.I noticed this cute slash guy hanging around the exit of the library and I also notice that he stares at me. I think that he's just staring at either Zimah, Zilah, Iyan, Sa'aadah or aany of the pretty girls I hang out with.But upon waiting for JM to come out of the library I went to the dining with Sa'aadah. He was there. In the canteen. Talking with this guy.He noticed me and I noticed him. I wet to buy food and he continues talking to his friend. But he changed his position to face at our general direction. I know. Because I was staring at him through the reflection of the freezer thing. And he constantly looked at our general direction.I ate my food in the dining with my position and Sa'aadah's facing the canteen. When he came I quickly changed the position and sat across Sa'aadah.She knows that I find him cute. So she on her own favor offered to take pictures of him for me. When she did she giggled. I didn't know why atm.He was walking with the dude and Munir. And I tagured Munir and he tagured Sa'aadah first then me. He looked back and at me. Then stopped there.After Munir went he sat at the guy's part of the dining hall and at the clearest view he could possibly get for me to see him. But I blocked the view with Sa'aadah's head.Then Sa'aadah showed the pictures she took just then.It showed him noticing that Sa'aadah was taking pictures.Second picture was him behind me making that victory sign~Awwww~!!I was looking at the pictures, smiling.Then it struck me.Could it be that I'm starting to like him??And I was telling Sa'aadah about it and she told me to stay setia with JM.HAH!! But seriously I was awwww-ing and smiing at the pictures. That could mean... 0.0 Could it be that I'm falling for him too?Hmm.... I need to be in control with my hormones.Labels: confused, should i or should not??
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