I cried "corn beef" in a demonic voice in front of people I'd just met. If that tells you anything about me...
Other than that, the name is Nabilah Johari who goes by her days embarrassing friends with her shameless antics.
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I cried "corn beef" in a demonic voice in front of people I'd just met. If that tells you anything about me...
Other than that, the name is Nabilah Johari who goes by her days embarrassing friends with her shameless antics.
I will never feel the same. I will never ever be able to let go. Pairing : Kim Jaejoong and Jung Yunho (Jaeho) Length : One-shot Summary : How could someone yearn for such a dramatic illusion? Taking in everything that life had thrown towards him, typical Grade-A student, Kim Jaejoong, found himself facing the greatest hurdle yet.
“Asshole.” Kim Jaejoong muttered under his breath as he picked up the pieces of paper that had fallen onto the dirty cement floor. He frowned as he adjusted his heavily framed spectacles, smiling as he saw that his assignments were still usable.
A screech could be heard from his left as he turned around to see his best friend taking up the next seat to him. “Don’t you think it’s just too tiring to be doing that every single day?” Park Yoochun muttered as he faced his friend, resting his head on his palm as he frowned.
“I would feel better this way.” Jae shrugged as he sat back on his chair once again.
“Being nerdy didn’t seem to be doing you any good.”
“Don’t bother.” Jae rolled his eyes. “I’m fine with the way I am right now.”
Yoochun’s eyes hardened as he heard the resignation tone in Jae’s voice. “Students that fell in love with you shouldn’t be your burden to carry. They made it hard for you anyway when you rejected them in the end. Do you like it? Having to see your things being thrown on the floor each day just because you said ‘no’?”
“No, of course I don’t but it makes them feel better about it.” Jae smiled.
Jae loved nothing more than to walk down the school garden; to make sure that every single plant was in place. But due to some obvious reasons, he couldn’t do just that. Sitting down on the grass, under the huge Angsana tree, he looked at his heavily bandaged leg.
He remembered how furious Yoochun had looked the day before. It was an accident, Jae rebutted silently. A student, one of his usual admirers, had confessed to him in the middle of the cafeteria, with everybody else looking. Jae couldn’t bear to hurt the boy but he couldn’t say yes either.
The torn expression on his face was enough to give the boy an answer. Jae didn’t know that the boy would push him. He sure didn’t know that he would fell right on his butt, twisting his left ankle on the way.
Everybody gasped but not Yoochun.
The next moment, Jae saw a flash of white (Yoochun’s jacket) and found the boy falling down on the floor beside him. Without uttering much, his best friend grabbed his hands and pulled him up slowly. And he found himself in the school infirmary a few minutes later, with the school nurse tending to his injury.
It was just an accident, an event that no one would ever want to find themselves in. Leaning against the trunk of the tree, he looked up, seeing the green leaves swaying with the wind. Smiling foolishly to himself, he closed his eyes, feeling content.
Poke.
Poke. Poke.
Poke.
“Stop it, Yoochun!” Jae barked as he opened up his eyes, frowning. But the frown quickly changed into an apologetic look as he realized that the man beside him was not his best friend at all. “I’m sorry.”
“What for?” The stranger replied as he winked. “I’m the one who was poking you on your injured ankle.”
“Right.”
“So, yesterday was quite a show, huh?”
Something stilled inside of him when Jae heard the sentence from the other man. “It’s not a show.”
“If you say so.” The man replied, shrugging his shoulders, not at all being intimidated by Jae’s cold voice.
“Who are you? I have never seen you before.”
The other man could only smile before standing up slowly, Jae’s eyes followed his every move, frowning once again. “Yunho. Jung Yunho, nice to meet you.” He winked but didn’t reach out a hand for Jae to shake. “And don’t worry, we will be meeting each other a whole lot more that you will get uneasy should I disappear one day. Good day, Kim Jaejoong, it’s been a good day.” _____________________________________________________________________
Jae didn’t think much of the meeting of course. Who could be so weird as to say something like that? Even when the other man had left him alone in the garden, his face was still flustered, his heart somehow beating faster.
But it’s stupid; he chided himself as he locked the door to his shared hostel room with Yoochun. He was not interested in committing himself to any relationship right now, especially with someone that could be as weird as that. Jae had wanted to ask his best friend about Yunho back last night but he found out that the room was empty. Yoochun must be out partying with Junsu again.
Jae shook his head as he though of the two men. They should just stop threading around each other already. Being a watcher was a tiring 24/7 job and to see the two men trying to get the other person jealous was ridiculous. They should just have confessed to each other and be together. That would be a good happy ending for the both of them.
Clutching his bag on his right hand, he walked down the road, walking towards his school as he contented himself with the amazing view around him. The sun was shining brightly today as he smiled foolishly to himself.
“Another good morning, I see.”
Jae didn’t need to turn around to know who it was but he didn’t need to stop either to acknowledge the owner of the voice. Walking a little bit quicker but hopefully not noticeable, Jae kept his focus in front of him.
“Ignoring me, I see.”
The sentence made him stopped in his tracks. Jae could only turn around, watching the man from yesterday standing in front of him, smirking. “I’m not ignoring you. I’m just not acknowledging you.”
“Wow. That’s another way to put it.” Yunho replied, smiling now as he put his left arm around Jae’s shoulders, forcing him to turn around once again before continuing the walk down the road.
“You might think that I’m feeling uncomfortable around you.” Jae started after a few minutes of walking in silence. It was a puzzle how the other man’s arm had moved down to snake around his waist. “I am.” Jae replied bluntly.
“Ouch.” Yunho replied, putting his free right hand over his chest, pretending to be hurt. “I’m honoured to be the one making you feel uncomfortable.” He winked before pulling Jae closer towards him. “And I know your weakness, Kim Jaejoong.” Yunho leaned in, whispering into the other man’s ear.
“Weakness-s?”
“You always find it hard to see no, don’t you? That’s the reason why you are not punching me right on the face the moment I put my arms around you.” _____________________________________________________________________
Kim Jaejoong was a man that respected a person’s privacy. He was also the type of guy that would never ever force someone to talk about something he or she wouldn’t want to. And that included a certain Jung Yunho.
He was everywhere, Jae thought silently. It was as though the other man had replaced Yoochun’s place in being his best friend. They went everywhere together, even the darn school’s toilet.
Yunho was right, damn it! He couldn’t imagine himself snapping at the other man to leave him alone. He would never do that and because of that, he couldn’t very well get out of Yunho’s grasp.
Well, not that he had wanted to.
“You are frowning.”
The soft question forced Jae to tear his attention away from his theory book to take a look at the other man beside. Something struck Jae’s attention as he saw how nonchalant the other man was. “Why are you not studying?”
“Huh?”
“Exams are coming in a month. Everyone is busy, getting ready to start their revision.”
“Yoochun didn’t.”
Jae frowned at the mention of his roommate who was currently bunking in with Kim Junsu. “Yes but at least he attended the lectures and classes. You didn’t.”
“So?”
“So you should be studying harder than the rest of us. Not sitting under the tree, goofing off, wasting your time like this.”
Yunho remained silent, not replying as he closed his eyelids slowly. Jae frowned, feeling uneasy all of the sudden. “You know, sometimes, a thing could consume our life and we wouldn’t even know it. And you keep on going, day after day, striving to be the best. But when you finally reach the top, you had found out that you had just lost to life.”
“What are you saying?” Jae whispered.
Jung Yunho was a chameleon, Jae thought silently as the other man opened his eyes quickly ands smiled like a fool he always was. “I’m just saying, studying too hard could make you go crazy.”
“….”
“Oh well, I’m already crazy anyway.”
Jae could only turn back to his book, not really reading. “We could be crazy together.”
And Yunho’s mouth curved into a tiny smile. _____________________________________________________________________
Jae didn’t blink.
His orbs were starting to tear but still, he refused to even take a tiny blink. The class was silent behind him. He could feel pairs of eyes burning through his back but still, he didn’t move.
“Mr. Kim, you are going for detention this afternoon.”
Jae looked at his homeroom teacher, Alexander, as his hands balling into a tight fist. “I have done it. It’s just that I had forgotten to bring it to school.”
Alexander could only shake his head sadly as he saw what used to be the top student in the class. “You had said that yesterday and the day before. It’s been a week; you can’t keep going on the same lie forever.”
“I’m not lying.”
“Look at yourself!” Alexander’s voice boomed as it echoed in the almost-silent classroom. “You used to be at the top of the class but now, it’s a different matter altogether. I won’t even bother to mention about your grades! Is being late your style now?”
“The bus is late.”
“3 o’clock. Detention, no arguments.”
“I won’t go.”
Alexander froze as he stared into his student’s eyes, seeing the defiance raging in those orbs. “What had happened to you, Jae? You didn’t use to become like this. I thought that I would never have to be worried about you.”
“That’s not your problem.”
“You are my student.”
“Fuck that.”
Soft gasps could be heard throughout the classroom as the teacher’s eyes hardened. “What did you just say?”
“Fuck off. I’m leaving. I had enough of school anyway.” _____________________________________________________________________
“How could a guy who always seems to be following the rules suddenly becomes a guy who could be so defiant?”
Jae didn’t need to look up to know that it was Yunho. Eyes still focused on the book on his lap, his vision began to blur as he stared deep at that one spot on the yellowed page. Choking back a sob, his hand flipped the page to the next one.
“You are trembling.” Yunho whispered as his hand closed around the other man hand, their hands lay in the middle of the page, resting softly on top of each other. Jae slowly turned his hand around so that their fingers could intertwine.
“Things change, you know.” Jae replied as his eyes bored on the linked hands. “One moment I’m at the top of the game and the next, I’m being pushed to the ground.”
“I heard about your parent’s divorce. I-”
“I had expected it.” Jae interrupted. “One way or another, there would be a time when even the harshest of words couldn’t win a fight. I’m happy for my parents, you know. Happy that they could now be freed of the other’s grasp, they don’t fit well, I know that. My sisters do too. They didn’t want to admit it at first, wanting to hold on to something that’s not theirs.”
“Everyone should have a chance to hope.”
“And not every hope could be turned into a new day. They paid the price for all these years of fighting and screaming. But I’m stuck.” Yunho could see the other man’s lips trembled. “They won’t let me go. Up until now, they still won’t let me go.”
“I think you are old enough to decide who you would want to live with.”
Jae looked up, smiling wistfully. “And tell me, how could a son ever choose his father or mother?” _____________________________________________________________________
It was eight in the morning when he heard noises in the living room. Rubbing his sleepy eyes as his feet touched the cold floor; he took slow and steady steps towards the largest space of the apartment.
“Nuna?” Jae whispered softly as he saw his oldest sister sitting on the couch, smoking her usual brand of cigarette. “What are you doing here?”
“Well, I want to check on my bratty brother.” Hye Jin replied as she patted the empty seat beside her as Jae moved to sit on the space mentioned. “You are not doing well in school.”
Jae snorted, not at all surprised. “My homeroom teacher called you?”
“Hey.”
The sudden voice stopped the smirk on Jae’s face as he muttered a soft apology. “I have nothing against Alexander.”
“You better not; I’m getting married to him in a month. And it’s not him who had called me.”
“Huh?” Jae looked up, confused.
“Yunho. Jung Yunho. I didn’t know that you had found yourself another best friend.”
He found me, Jae thought silently. _____________________________________________________________________
SIX MONTHS LATER:
The fallen leaves were on the ground, making sounds with every step that Jae was taking. His hand was holding a familiar black book with exactly 323 pages of English’s Shakespeare translated into Hangul. Sitting down on his usual spot, he put the old book on his lap.
Waiting, he was waiting for someone.
“Hey.”
Jae frowned, his heart screaming in frustration as he turned around, seeing Yoochun taking the empty space beside him. “What are you doing here?” Jae asked bluntly, not bothering whether he had offended the younger man or not.
“Ouch, that really hurts, Jae-ah.” Yoochun muttered as he threw a small punch onto Jae’s left arm. “I can’t see my best friend now? How long had it been since you had moved from the school hostel to your mom’s place?”
“Six months.”
“You had beaten the whole state, what a surprise.” Yoochun replied sarcastically.
“I have been gone far too long, I guessed. I’m sorry, for not mentioning it to you personally. You are too wrapped up with Junsu to even bother where I was.”
“Jeez, thanks for the insult.”
“Listen, I come back to look for someone.”
“Oh great. Now I’m really hurt.” Yoochun pouted, his eyes darkened when he realized that the other man wasn’t looking for him at all.
“Hey, don’t be a baby, alright?” Jae rolled his eyes. “Where’s Jung Yunho? Did he passed the exams?”
Yoochun frowned as his mind searched for face to match the name that Jae had just spoken. “Jung Yunho? I have never heard of him before.”
“Very funny.” Jae threw a punch back. But when he saw the puzzled look on Yoochun’s face, his irritation gave way to confusion. “He’s the guy that always had the knack to stick with me. We were always together, remember?”
“Jae-ah…” Yoochun was hesitant, as though afraid of saying something in his mind. “You became rebellious the moment your parents are going through a divorce. You always came to school late, started to smoke, missed out on lessons and didn’t even bother to hand in your homework.”
“Was I that bad?”
“That’s not the worse of it.” Yoochun whispered. “You were always talking to empty air, as though there was someone beside you when it was obvious that there wasn’t anyone there. The school was alerted you know but your sister refused to send you for treatment. She said that you were going to leave soon anyway.
“Is this a joke? Because if it is, then it’s not really funny.”
“It’s not, Jae. It’s not. You were always spending most of your time under this tree, reading that old book on your lap. It was a normal view from my point of view, back at the classroom but then I saw your mouth opened as you turned around, smiling into the empty air beside you.”
“I-I…”
“I wanted to help, fuck, I should have but Junsu was so scared for me that he refused to let me out of his sight. But I never fail to follow you to school every single day and right at the moment when you were at the main road, you will stop for a while before smiling. And you began talking as though there was someone beside you when in reality, there was no one at all.”
“That couldn’t be. He’s real.”
“You looked happy.” Yoochun replied as he stared out at the school backyard’s garden. “Maybe that’s the only reason why I didn’t confront you even when I was tempted to. You have never looked so happy, as though you were with someone that you loved. And I decided that it’s better that way, to leave you alone and just keep on protecting you from afar. You are my best friend, Jae-ah, you always are. I couldn’t stand seeing you hurt.”
Jae’s hands trembled as Yoochun passed him what seemed to be an old piece of newspaper. Yoochun prodded him to take a look at it as he realized that it was last year news.
December 17th, 2006
A high school student of Kim Yeok High had met with a fatal car accident at 3.30pm on Mkei Jin Main Road. Jung Yunho, son of the infamous poetry writer, Jung Huanwee, was pronounced dead when….
Jae couldn’t bear to continue reading on as his eyes gazed down to the small familiar picture of the boy that he used to know. The boy that had brought a tremendous amount of sunshine in his life.
“I-I…I have been talking to a ghost?” Jae whispered weakly as the piece of newspaper fell to the ground.
And Yoochun didn’t know what to answer to that.
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First of all, this is a one-shot and would remain as a oneshot; no sequel is intended to be written at all. So I take this chance to clarify.
How Yunho could call Jae's sister?
- Well I have two ways to say this. Firstly, call. Technically it's impossible but I don't know. I mean if ghost really exist in real world then it's quite possible that they could call... right? Second, mind to mind. Letting his sister know(maybe in a dream) of Jae's problem and making her think that it was a phonecall.
Well there are other ways - though impossible - but hey it's just another fanfiction.
Zati made me lose my confidence, and I regret listening to her. So I wandered off in gayland to cheer myself up.
I was on the net randomly looking at pictures, then I saw this intriguing abstract miniature statue of... something beautiful I couldn't make out what.
I am deprived, man. I'm pretty much desperate now.
So I wrote this, surprisingly around more or less 4 hours, including breaks.
And voila! It's short though.
Ephemeral Child Pairing : Yoochun/Jaejoong
"Jaejoong is Yoochun's best, worst secret, held safe behind closed doors and drawn curtains."
Everyone who visits Yoochun's dorm room comments on the figurine that stands at the far corner of his desk.
When asked, Yoochun replies, his fingers just touching the curve of a porcelain cheek, "Oh, that's Jaejoong. He's been my best friend since I was a kid."
In general, people think it's a joke, smile at the whimsy, or decide Yoochun just doesn't want to talk about it, move on to speak about other, safer, things. What they don't know is that after the door's closed behind them, Yoochun takes down the statue, sets it gently on the carpet and says, "They're gone, you can come out now." They don't see the statue grow and stretch, bend the air and become a young man just Yoochun's height, with pale skin, honey-gold hair, and strange eyes that glint brown and blue by turns. (He used to be a boy just Yoochun's height, and then a teenager who grew as Yoochun did. Now, he's this.)
No-one else has seen Jaejoong - stretched out on Yoochun's bed with a computer game, beating Yoochun's high scores; humming along to the radio as he proof-reads Yoochun's essay; half-helping, half-getting in the way as Yoochun tries to make dinner; laughing and drying Yoochun's tears at the end of a sappy romantic movie that Yoochun wouldn't even admit he owned to anyone else. Jaejoong is Yoochun's best, worst secret, held safe behind closed doors and drawn curtains.
Sometimes at night, with Jaejoong breathing against Yoochun's shoulder, Yoochun dreams about dropping the statue, watching it fall and shatter. In his dreams, he wonders if that would set Jaejoong free, if Jaejoong would step out of the shards of broken china, if he would open the curtains and let the unfiltered sun touch him for the first time. Yoochun dreams about taking Jaejoong to lectures, leaning together and complaining about the boring ones; about walking next to Jaejoong in the park, barefoot in the grass; about showing him the world outside Yoochun's room, the everyday, ordinary life that Yoochun leads when he's not with Jaejoong.
Yoochun wakes up terrified that he's actually done it, that the statue is gone, that the door is open, that Jaejoong has walked out of Yoochun's life; or worse, that with the statue broken, Jaejoong has just ceased to exist (that he never existed at all?). Yoochun's heart pounds in his ears, desperate, until he finds the courage to open his eyes and sees Jaejoong, sitting in the desk chair, staring at photographs of distant cities on Yoochun's computer screen, until Jaejoong turns and says, "Good morning, sleepyhead," and smiles.
Gah, that's done. My writing's a bit rusty though but bear with it yeah? I've been uselessly emo after I got home, and now that I think of it -- it's still very painful and bitter.
By happening, it seems like he won't be performing on the concert.
The boyband TVXQ's leader, Uknow Yunho who was suppose to be performing in the "DongBangShinKi The 2nd Asia Tour Concer "O" ~ Seoul Encore" was practicing during the rehearsals on the night of the 25th and then he was injured around the pelvic region.
A representative of Yunho said, "Yunho is hurt on his vertebrae lumbars. It may take probably 3 to 4 weeks to its recuperation. It doesn't matter if he works, or he moves, but if he doesn't dance or do exercice it will be better."
SM Entertainment said, "Now that we know how the situation is, we think that it will be hard for Yunho to perform. Even if he cannot performance, he will be on the stage and he will sing the ballads, and the memtors like the previous arrangement."
Then finally Yunho said, "For all the people that waited to the Encore Concert I am very sorry to all of you. Even if I cannot give you my best in performances because of this inconvenience, I will show you my best on the stage."
Why yunho WHY? Why must you be injured every year? But a lumbar vertebrae projection fracture is too much, man. He should chiiiilll. God darn it that man. Why must he work so haaaarrddd? ;_____;
Fricken hell I'm crying for him right now. Guuuuhhh, YUNHOOOO. So dancing man! You danced in the last concert when you were injured? DUDE, you must be out of your miiind. Dear god, I am so sad. Very sad. God bless his socks that the injury is fricken treatable.
He loves making his fans worry so much. I hate you. I love you. I lovehate you.
Yunho, ONE word of advice, DON'T PUSH YOURSELF TOO HARD.
Actual medical info (with the least jargon available) about lumbar vertebrae fractures:
"Lumbar vertebrae fractures are caused by a direct force or sudden muscle contraction and are commonly accompanied by major soft tissue damage. Treatment and prognosis depends on the degree of fracture and the presence of complications. Symptoms include severe pain (spontaneous or during exercise) in the lower back and difficulty with body movement in the acute phase as well as local bruising, swelling, and occasionally, spinal deformation and neuroparalysis.
Treatment during the acute phase includes rest, medication, and fixation (with plaster and corset)
"Taken from this medical paper. Page 18 if you want to check it out.
Summary: It hurts like hell when you do it, and for a while afterwards, but it is treatable.
While it can be a severe injury, it can also be a less severe injury, so rather that anyone jumping on me for trying to be rational as some people did when I posted information about superglue being impossible to ingest as some people did, please pray to the deity of your choice that it's a comparatively minor injury with no complications.
Judging from the fact that his recovery is said to take 3-4 weeks I hope it is a less severe injury, and I'm sure SM will allow him to recover fully, they let Jaejoong recover properly from his leg injury, and they aren't in the business of permanently breaking their biggest meal tickets.
For god's and your sake, Yunho, REST. RESSSSSTTT. Or us fans will take your Bambi as hostage.
I am freaking out. No, spazzing out more like it. But I need to keep it as professional as can be.
First of all, who knew that the reserved stoic prettyboy Jaejoong knew how to move it. If I were you, I would also spazz out looking at it. Because he looks so, ugh hot.
Plus there was a momentary Jaeho moment too. So that will be an additional spaztastic session, for me at least. I watched this in my silent room and my family would think I'm crazy if I suddenly squeal and hit the table. So conclusion : I bit my post diary with all my might to supress my fangirly squeal. Therein now the four edges of my post diary has deep bite marks. (cries) I'm sorry, post diary!
If you watch the video on youtube.com, it would be around 2:32. If you watch this embedded one, it would be around 1:41
Enjoy~ Well that is if you like the kind of smut amusement I usually prefer. It's all in a matter of taste.
And I'm not forcing you to watch it if you don't desire to. My wish is to spread the Jaeho lovin'.
A few entries back I mentioned that I could not for the 19th. And on that specific date something big, to me, will happen. Well right now, bless those active fangirls' cotton socks, I thank god that the Tohoshinki's Japanese single Ride On is been "released".
I know I'm not supposed to freak out.
I know I shouldn't scare you readers with my rabid fangirliness.
I know that I'm blogging about this after my sungkai.
And I am sure that I will not hurt anyone's bodypart in any way.
But to heck with it. I'm happy, no. I AM EXTREMELY HIGH IN THE SKIES RIGHT NOW. Ride On has been released and I knew about it just a minute before the baduk was gong'ed and I know I shouldn't have eat like a pig and choke on my food on the way to my room to blog about this.
Fuck. I mean... really. F-U-C-K.
And I will not shed a tear of overjoy. *quickly wipes away tears*
Before I want to hear how you think about it, admit it to me that it sounds H-O-T hot. It does doesn't it? No? Well, boo you.
Romanized lyrics by Jaejin @ dbsg.lj
Ah ah ah get up. Take a ride? Ah take a ride? Listen you door wo akete jiyuu ni naru gaki wo sashikonde yeah right now kakaru ignition mou ikitsukumadewa orirarenai yeah
oh feel me? give me your more beat. (um umm) atsui mamani so we gotta bounce alright (we gotta bounce alright) girl, squeeze me kono karada ni oshiyoseru in your love oh baby
oh wow wow hey you drive me crazy tonight ima hashirinukeruyo baby alright? (baby alright)
oh wow wow
uh baby you're cruising with me, soshite get in zone
kanjiatte (you're cruising) with me
oh wow wow
good girl (good girl) dokomadedemo kimi wo noseteiku dakara motto yeah
oh no jirasanaide I wanna let you say "want you"
hatenaki daydream yeah
oh feel me? give me your more beat. (oh I know that you feel me)
ijigen (? kanji pixelart xD)he to so we gotta bounce alright (we gotta bounce alright)
sore ijou to my love
Oh wow wow
hey you drive me crazy tonight (drive me crazy tonight)
mada tsuzuku yume nara (baby alright)
oh wow wow
uh baby you're cruising with me kokode get in zone
tokeruyou ni (you're cruising) with me (oh wow wow)
hey you drive me crazy tonight (yeah)
imahashirinukeruyo baby alright? (baby alright)
oh wow wow
uh baby you're cruising with me (cruising with me) Soshite get in zone
kanjiatte (you're cruising) with me
oh wow wow
yeah come on baby
I wanna get in a zone alright
feel me wow wow
hey you drive me crazy tonight
mada tsuzuku yume nara baby alright? (baby alright)
oh wow wow
uh baby you're cruising with me (cruising with me) kokode get in zone
tokeruyou ni (you're cruising) with me (oh wow wow)
hey you drive me crazy tonight
imahashirinukeruyo baby alright? (baby alright)
oh wow wow
uh baby you're cruising with me. Soshite get in zone
kanjiatte (you're cruising) with me
oh wow wow
oh feel me? (give me your more beat baby)
my my girl, squeeze me I wanna get in a zone alright
girl, squeeze me baby amazing sweet
my my girl, squeeze me get in zone alright
oh wow wow
Oh my. Seeing the lyrics totally gives the once-innocent boys as very very naughty sexy and Justin Timberlake-ish. Listening and trying to sing along with the boys is enough to make me sweat profusely already.
These boys rock my world. Really. Those lyrics is... just... *dies* "squeeze me" and "feel me" are hoooottt. I love the 'MMM' part~
From now on I am a very very happy person. Really.
Until I get okay from all this hotness and sexiness the boys are giving me, don't prankcall 991. :))
PWAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!! THIS VIDEO KILLED ME!! HAHAHAHAHAHA I CAN'T BREATHE!! I CAAAN'T BRREEATTHHHHEEE!!!! HAHAHAHAH SHIIIITTT. HEECHUL YOU ADORABLE EVIL GENIUS!!
I know I'm spose to be busy with icon-making but HECK I just couldn't help to share these with you readers! Even if you're not a DBSK fan but I know for sure that you'll laugh with me at this!
Uuugghh. All that 6 minutes of non stop laughing used up most of my energy. Ah well, there's like two more hours to go till sungkai.
BUT SERIOUSLY WATCH IT AND I PROMISE YOU THAT YOU ENJOY THIS AS MUCH AS I DO AND YOU WILL HAVE A HEALTHY HEART WHEN YOU WATCH THIS!!
Whoever made this is A GENIUS!
It made me crack up like a nut job and I wasn't kidding when I said I almost died of laughter. So whoever with the weak heart, I advice you not to watch this. Unless you insist to watching 6 minutes of pure crack.
And oh, if you see a big white blank instead of a video, you clickety click here~
I know I should've asked permission to get this translation posted here but I just couldn't get in contact with the person who made the translation. So I will credit them after the translation.
And because of this, it made me cry and made me love Youngwoong JaeJoong more.
Long time ago, somewhere in Korea, a 15 year old boy bid goodbye to the city that had raised him, he gathered up a few pieces of luggage, said goodbye to 8 sisters and 2 parents who loves him deeply, he got on the train to Seoul, his family cried at the sight of his back walking away, the boy heard his loved ones crying for him, but he was afraid to look back, because he knew if he looked back, he wouldn’t have the heart to leave, but he didn’t want to throw away his dream, plus he didn’t want his family to see his tears. Just like that, with a very thin jacket in a freezing winter, for the sake of his dream, the boy left his home town for the first time in 15 years, to a big city he’s only seen in his dreams.
Finally, the train has stopped, the boy got off of the train, as he looked at this strange yet fancy city and all its glory, busy streets, limelights, he’s never seen anything like this before. He felt his heart grow weak because it was so overwhelming. Really.. can he really find his place in a city like this? The boy hesitated, his faith was shaken.
But, the dream he has in his heart can’t die, if he just goes home like this, he’ll never forgive himself for being such a weak coward, so, without any help or anyone, the boy found himself an apartment the size of a tuna can.. and call it home.
SM Entertainment, the biggest music entertainment company held its second singing contest, the boy went, in the lobby, he saw so many other boys are that just like him, hoping to get picked through his contest so they can be on their way to a great singer, all the boys were well dressed, they were wearing the hippest clothes, with high-end mp3 players in their ears as they practice. The boy looked down on his plain grey tshirt and jeans, he felt like he has already lost half of the battle.
He was contestant number 12, he walked into the audition room, there sits 5 stone cold expressionless judges, he was a nervous, until a judge asked him to open his mouth and sing.
Just like that, his voice touched everyone in the room, that voice, was by the far the purest, the softest they’ve heard, when you listen to his voice, you can’t help but feel this sadness and tons of emotions, but even so, you want to continue to listen to his voice, forever and forever, just be loss in the sound of his voice. But still, his voice was too soft, too weak.
The reason the boy won the contest because he has a flawless face, perfect skin, long eyelashes, delicate features that are even prettier than a girl’s, big watery eyes, pouty lips, and that white as snow skin. They said his face was born to be in the entertainment business.
He got signed by SM, with a 7 year contract, two years of training, he has to pay for all of his music, dancing and other classes. The next five years he would actually become an entertainer, seeing himself that much closer to his dream, the boy signed the contract, knowning in the next two years, his life will be extremely hard, hard like he’s never experienced before, but he knows this is his dream, so he can not give up.
So he begun those two grueling years, he knew his family isn’t well off, so he’s never asked his parents for a penny, everyday he jumped in between 3 different jobs, when everyone else was still sleeping, the printer will drop off a stack of newspaper that are as heavy as he is, he would ride an old bike and deliver those newspapers door by door. In the afternoon he would jump from construction site to construction doing temporary work, that gorgeous face is being covered those pounds of cement and dirt, he had to suppress his beautiful voice because he wanted to be liked by his superior. After his music lessons early afternoon, in order to save a few dollars, he walks 3 hours to his waitressing job at a restaurant, he quietly does his job, quietly takes on everything a 15 year shouldn’t. quietly doing everything he can to get through these two rough years. All for the day he will be surrounded by bright lights.
The boy did everything he could, but he still couldn’t manage three meals a day, every time he gets his salary, the first he does is pays for his lessons, even if the left over isn’t nearly enough for him to eat or buy any clothes. Finally one day, the boy realized he didn’t have any money left for food, he had been starving for two days, his weak body shouldn’t even be walking, but with the pressure of he has to pay for his classes, he still went to work. That night, when he was cleaning a table at the restaurant, he saw a customer has left more than half bowl of his noodle soup, it was still hot, he couldn’t take the hunger anymore, his hands were shaking.. he picked up a spoon and started to eat the left over noodles.. huh. He wonders why it starts to taste so salty.. then he realized it was his tears.. has dropped down in the bowl w/o him realizing.
One the day, the boy got sick, he was running a high fever, he laid in his tiny little apartment for three straight days, thank god he already paid for his lessons, but he’s short 3 days worth of pay, so once again, the boy dragged his fragile body, walked three hours to his restaurant job.
On the way back, he saw a blood donating booth, his stomach growled at him, the boy once again did something he didn’t want to.. he walked inside.. after an hour, he came out with a few bills in his hand, dragged his lifeless body into a store and bought the cheapest pack of cracker there is.
Finally, he got through these two years, he was chosen to be in a group of five, the company have announced that this is going to be one of the best group of all times. Even though the five boys are very different, but the company believe that together, they will be perfect. The boys thought he was so lucky to be chosen in such a group, at the same time, being the oldest, he got four younger “brothers” who adores him.
When they put out their first EP, even though there are only two songs on there, they topped the charts in Korea, also broke the fact that EP doesn’t sell well in Korea, the boy finally got a taste of success, as he sees more and more fan letters everyday, he knew everything in the past two years was worth it.
But nothing’s perfect, good times are always short, it’s cruel actually. The first time they held their fan meeting, the people that came were fans of other members, watching lines of fans lined up in front of other members, there’s not even a single soul in front of him self, he wanted to scream and cry, The crew members didn’t want to make things weird, so they dragged a few fans in front of the boy. The boy held his sadness, starting talk to the female fan girl. But the fan girl coldly threw him “ I was forced to stand in your line, I don’t even like you”.. his heart was shattered again. But he didn’t cry, he rather bit his lip and let it bleed, but he doesn’t want to cry in front of anyone. Esp himself. The boy didn’t know why the fan didn’t like him, but what he doesn’t know is that his fans were still waiting outside the building b/c the meeting room was full.. their hearts were shattering along with his.
Once he found out online that it’s not that others don’t like him nor he did anything wrong, but because he’s just too pretty.. even the girls are jealous.. reading this silly gibberish, the boy chuckled. He never gave up, everyday he puts on his sincere smiley face to public, hoping and praying that others will see him for who he really is, hear his voice. But the harder he try the more pressure he felt. Whenever he makes a mistake during performances, it makes him nervous, because he’s scared that others will dislike him even more b/c of it. So little by little. The boy stopped smiling in front of the camera, watching his every action and words.
But because of it, the fans were chatting he’s pretending to be too cool, so the company should consider switching him out.. he was seriously scared, he didn’t want leave this place that was practically his 2nd home, but he understand that he’s just a "body" that makes money for the company, if the consumers are tired of this body, then the company must switch the body out for new one.
He didn’t get switched, he found out that his fans roamed the streets in his honor for days, begging the company to keep him in the group. Also, the maknae of the group, changmin, despite what the manager forbids him to do, begged in front of the camera, that if the company takes the boy away, he will tear up his contract and go back to being a high school student.
The boy cried, he knows that everyone in this group has a passion for music, Changmin the youngest, just like him, has gone through hardship to get to where he is today. The boy cherished everything he has even more, he begins to practice harder and harder, to thank his fans, also he wanted to show his best to his fans that loves him. During concerts, the boy always looks around in the audience, the director said that looks funny when he sings, the boy said it’s better for the singer to stare at one particular spot when he sings, but he can’t do that, because he wants to see the face of every single fan out there, even if the picture captured of him was ugly, he doesn’t care.
Once during dance practice, the boy fell.. he thought it was normal to fall when dancing. But this time he couldn’t get back, his knees was hurting like crazy, he balled up and started shaking in the corner of the room, the leader, Yunho, w/o saying a word, carried the boy on his back and took him to the nearest hospital, at the split second that the emergency room door was closing, the boy saw four familiar figures on the other side of the door. Worrying for him, praying for him.
The doctor said his right knee is pretty much gone, he needs surgery asap and it’s a major surgery so he needs to rest for a long time post-op, but the boy refused, the 2nd day after his surgery, he arrived at the Seoul Olympic stadium with the rest of the members, like his schedule, he met with his fans, before the meeting, Yunho was by his side all the time, didn’t leave his side for even a second. During the fan meet, they asked what does Changmin want for new years, Changmin’s answer “ I wish for hyung to get better soon”.
The boy hates crying, he looked down, tried his hardest not to let his tears fall, he finally looked at the fans, he saw them crying for him, his heart was breaking, he picked the microphone and said “ I’m not hurting at all, really, please don’t cry for me, let’s face each other with smiles, please?” this is the first the boy has lied to everyone, it was within 24 hours of his surgery, how can it not hurt? But he toughed it out, for the love he has for his fans.
He finally recovered, he celebrated with his friends, on the drive home, he was pulled over by the police for drinking and driving, Yunho came to pick him up at the police station w/o a word, but the boy knew he has disappointed Yunho and others.
The boy was kept in silence by the company for two weeks, he knows that this is actually the lightest punishment for his foolish actions, and he knew his member have begged the company many many times, so that he’s not going to get kicked out. Because of it. He insisted in the next fan meet, he will apologize to everyone. That was the first time the boy has shed tears in front of his fans, .. when his fans said that they forgive him and they still love him.
The boy started to get more and more popular, people started seeing him for more than just a gorgeous face, he’s a passionate musician with a beautiful voice and he’s a brave soul who isn’t afraid to face his mistakes. Three simple words “ we forgive you “ from the fans gave him all the faith he needed to carry on.
This boy, is Kim JaeJoong, a member of the hottest group in Korea. DBSK. The company gave him the stage of name of YounWoon Hero JaeJoong. So whenever the boy wants to cry, he reminds himself he can’t.. because he’s Hero JaeJoong and a Hero doesn’t cry.. a hero will fight 'til the end and win the battle.
Once a DBSK fan said that the first time she saw JaeJoong, she thought his name couldn’t possibly be Hero because it didn’t suit his fragile image, but she knows now why his name is Hero, because underneath his beauty, lies the soul of a true hero. Purely fictional, really. Although there are some facts of his past here, like JaeJoong did live a life of a poor young street boy with no educationa and only a dream. It's just a dramatic way of describing his life.
And this one below is an extra bonus translation and I do have respect and salute to Yunho very much other than the time he stood up for his fan who was accused of stealing. *salutes* *cries* I love you, Yunho!
Bonus translation : Yunho's top 10 most unforgettable moments.
1. 2004 DBSK got into a car accident. A sedan hit DBSK’s van, the driver was pronounced dead on the spot, the van was completely crushed, each member was hurt in different ways. Yunho’s neck was very injured.
2. 2005, Nov 18 to 19th, he was running schedules non stop. The minute the camera shuts down, he fainted.
3. 2006, before his concert, his wrist was injured, but he removed the cast for the sake of the performance, during the performance he was bleeding, but he kept on singing. After the performance his hand was completely swollen.
4. 2006, march, barely 20 years old, fainted due to dehydration. His stomach isn’t strong, members always stick little reminder notes in his pocket reminding him to eat. Whenever he was trying to care for other members, they would say “ you should be the one resting right now”.. they flew between Korea and Japan every week.
5. For the sake of having a better pitch when he sings and a better, more mature image, he got procelin veneers on his teeth, PV needs to be changed every 10 years, he has gone through numerous discomfort and pain after his procedure. May of 2006, because he was in such pain (his teeth), he was rushed to the hospital right after his performance one night. June, he experienced eve more pain because of it, he could barely eat, his face was so swollen he had to start wearing a mask
6. 2006, July. Concert in Malaysia, knowning his fans have waited forever for him, he gave a perfect performance that fooled everyone, no one could tell that he was trying all his might to hold the pain that was caused by dislocation of his ankles. He insisted on performing for his fans, he had to be carried out after the performance. That performance caused him to be away for one month so he can rest.
7. 2006, October, around 10pm. Something horrible happened, emergency room, different hospitals, cleaning and pumping out his stomach. The suspect has turned herself in. Yunho said “ she’s about my age, I have a sister, so I hope she will receive forgiveness. As for me. No worries. I’m fine. I’m sorry I’ve made you guys worry”
8. At an award ceremony, all the members were crying their eyes out, Yunho stayed strong, he held his tear in, he smiled, he kept thanking everyone, but backstage, he shed more tears than the rest of the members combined.
9. At another award ceremony, everyone could tell his eyes were watery and red, but once again, held in it. He bit his fingers.
10. The famous 18 continuous bow. After the MBC dance battle special, he was sick, but he held himself together for the show, backstage, he bowled to every single performer and crew members, the fans captured the total number of times he bowed. 18 times.
So... um. Yeah. Another fic. It's amazing how long I can write when I'm in a sad state than I were in any other. Of course, JaeHo.
I'm not sure how to summarise this. Okay lemme try the summary.
Summary : They said it was just a temporary fix. A way to pass the time until they got girls of their own. It was just something to fill the empty space in their beds. Jaejoong was lying. Yunho wasn't. Ngah. Listening to DBSK's Begin isn't making my mood any better. Why do I have to be so... emo?
Small drops of brine fall
unto this purple fabric;
Against the pillar
at the back
I show you this
Only you and I know
The only ones
This secret is meant between me and you
A secret shared to bond ourselves
You know that.
I told you.
Everywhere I go
I'd always end up at that place
where no one wanted me
where they put up fake smiles
where I feel most hated
As if I had nowhere else to go
As if I'm in a maze;
caught in a dead-end, that place.
But that place is the only place
where I won't feel lonely
despite the isolation.
That place holds me back from dying inside.
But it hurts not to hate it.
I want to despise it, and myself.
Because I had nowhere else to go.
And they're just my only choice.
Bad one. Bad, bad, bad. This is one thing I really didn't like about writing poems. The idea just pops back in my head and came out to be soo bad and still in draft form. A spur of the moment kinda thing.
Well at least I got some out of me. I felt like my head was gonna burst, thinking about it.
Oh right, on to the fic. And again. This one is a spur of the moment kinda thing like the poem. So there might be some errors. Bleh.
I. They said it was just a temporary fix. A way to pass the time until they got girls of their own. It was just something to fill the empty space in their beds.
Jaejoong knew from the beginning that he was lying right through his teeth. He had gotten so good at lying; sometimes it almost felt like the truth. He had always just assumed Yunho was equally deceptive. Lying about wanting nothing but a warm body to tide him over, not specifically Jaejoong’s warm body.
II. They carried on this way for years. The secret smiles and careless touches, brushing against each other, furtive fucks in closets and bathrooms and hidden corners. Jaejoong doesn’t remember when it stopped being just a fuck. Maybe it never was to him. Jaejoong doesn’t remember when he started to kiss Yunho. He doesn’t even remember if Yunho wanted to kiss him back or not.
The arrangement never was ideal. But then what of a clandestine homosexual relationship between celebrities ever is? But it was enough. They would keep lying about only needing a warm body for as long as this lust held their bodies together- hopefully forever, however naïve the notion. Or at least Jaejoong would.
III. The girl is beautiful. Not nearly as beautiful as Jaejoong mind but she was attractive in her own right. Jaejoong is all long limbs and sinewy body, hard edges pressed up against flat lines. She is petite and cute, curvy hips and ample chest. Both with silky fair hair and a pretty pink pout, long fluttery lashes and big dark eyes. But she giggles in ways Jaejoong is unused to, swings her body cutely in ways only adorable on a girl. She calls Yunho oppa with the drawn out syllables and girlish soprano.
When Jaejoong lies empty in his bed he forces his mind not to question why. He knows why. Hates that he knows why. But they always said it was only a temporary fix. Perhaps this temporary fix became a craving and an addiction, drunk on sex and heat, but all vices are curable. Perhaps only in eventuality and painstakingly so, but all in all curable, Jaejoong reminds himself.
IV. Heechul presses a cold beer against Jaejoong’s hot cheek. There is a silent understanding between the two boys. Once a rivalry of beauty and talent, vying for the affection of the same boy; but now it’s a silent understanding between two boys who know what being scorned by love for a woman of all things feels like.
Yunho dances close to the girl, practically panting in her ear and she doesn’t seem to mind in the least.
“Does it ever stop hurting?” Jaejoong asks quietly between sips. Heechul smirks, on the surface it seems merely mischievous, but Jaejoong knows the crude shape of the smirk comes only from the bitterness of heartbreak.
“Jaejoong. You and I are nothing alike.” Heechul says haughtily and gets up. Jaejoong takes that as a “no”. Heechul can flirt all he wants; throw himself in front of the camera, arms and legs tangled around nameless boy after nameless boy, harmless kisses and extravagant hand gestures every which way. But his eyes tell a different story.
Heechul is right. They are nothing alike. Jaejoong cannot hide his pain so easy, even if he merely brushes off the angles at which the camera catches his sadness as simple shyness.
V. Slowly Jaejoong begins to edge away. Turn his head towards Junsu and away from Yunho. To smile at Changmin and spend his time with Yoochun. Yunho is so wrapped up in whats-her-name he doesn’t even notice until it’s too late. Until he’s staring at Jaejoong across a chasm. Yunho asks the others sometimes what’s wrong with Jaejoong. Junsu gives him a pitying look. Changmin shakes his head at him exasperated. And Yoochun slaps him upside the head.
VI. Jaejoong smiles with sad eyes and walks away.
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Heechul's this really reaallllyyyy hot guy in Superjunior, the first Korean group I fell in love with. Sadly I don't have any pictures of him. But he's really divine-looking! siiiigh. I love being in a fandom of hot guys with fangirls fawning over them.
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