I've been slightly more or less productive an hour ago, and it's the only time I've ever been so productive.Back to the main thing;Hours ago I've been bawling my eyes out thinking whether to do it or not - at which the it I don't plan to tell - and, I guess, after the one-on-one girl talk(which kinda includes a lot of heartfelt confessions, sudden outpour - as in tears, dammit - insecure emotional state) it drilled in me deeper than I had expected.It left me thinking.Thinking about a lot of things, really.Things that really could send into tears in matter of seconds. Yeah, that touchy sensitive issues and the likes.So I was made to think while I was in the shower whether I should continue. Forget and let time mend the wound, or continue on for the sake of friendship.Then a hour ago with eyes as red as buah pinang, and sunken deep, and just a big pile of mess in pursuit to comfort myself, plus I was feeling bored, I googled the name Maktab Duli in hopes of seeing if my blog is in the list.I'm not sure whether to feel relieved or heartrendered at finding that my blog wasn't in that list. So I made more keywords in it, for example, Maktab Duli, Maktab Duli PMAMB, Maktab Duli MD, Maktab Duli. Most of the stuff there I see GDL's blog a lot. Haha. :DThen I wanted to see if my blog would appear. I've written Maktab Duli catalyst, Maktab Duli GDL, Maktab Duli limerence. None. I wasn't satisfied just yet when I took a more drastic measure.You know what I wrote down?You reaaallyy wanna know?You fricken serious you wanna know?Well fine, let me C&P. I typed GDL Wardah Munir Juzai Dzar Izni Zee Mush Fakhri Nab Nabs. Yes, I was that desperate to know if my blog was known. Haha. And no, I won't say that I'm hungry for popularity. Well, in this case my blog. Not myself. I don't want myself to be famous; just me blog.Haha. God, tell me how stupid was I to go that far to see if my blog is listed out. And it actually did. :D Well somewhere below GDL's blog, Izni's, and Neesa's. Damn, how sad.So I was thinking that if maybe I could boost up my blog into the upper list in Google by mentioning Maktab Duli more often here.Yeah.MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULIMAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULI MAKTAB DULIHaaah. Now after I post this useless entry up, I'll google again Maktab Duli and see if it works.[EDIT]Aii membari sakit ati jua tu. I googled Maktab Duli and I found none of my blog and them GDLs, Izni's, Neesa's although I found Ing Siang's.The second time I tried with Maktab Duli GDL, the membari sakit ati thing was I found none of my blog again. Gila baiieee. And and the most shocking yet funny thing was after GDL's blog was listed out I found Juzai's friendster.
And how did I react?
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O__________O
WTF??!!
Gah, I need to pee. But for god's sake, where in God's name is my blog??"
Yu-huh.
After Juzai's fster was Qawie's blog. And he's not even in GDL or even in MD anymore.
Hah. Gila membari sakit ati wah, parah wah jantung ane. PARAH. Merati PARAH?? Kalau inda, click saja ane, jangan galat eh. Kalau masih inda merati tanya Cigu Bahasa Melayumu ah, tanya ia apa ertinya Parah hati jantung jiwa sejiwa-jiwanya parah kan dibunuh diri ane inda jua si Nab ah. Yeah, ask her/him that.
Tapi flowing lah darah merah ini dalam hati dan jantung ini. FTW?
Hiiiisshhhh. I just want my blog to be listed out without typing out keywords that are soo fricken specific like GDL Wardah Munir Juzai Dzar Izni Zee Mush Fakhri Nab Nabs.
You gotta feel me, man. Fo' yo sistah fr'm n'tha motha. Understand how stupidly heartbroken I am.
Till then hate Google for me for not listing out my blog. You love me right? Then... then... hate Google. For me. Just me. I'm lovable right? Okay don't vomit on my carpet now.
Fine. Don't love me. I know I'm not as stalkable as that person sana atu whose name begins with a Z and ends with either an E or an H.
[EDIT OF AN EDIT]
The bloody thing won't budge. Call me desperate, selfish or an attention seeker but damn, why in this cyber world won't my blog pop up?
Gah, bloody fricking hell. When I typed in Fakhri, Munir, Mush Google finally shows my blog?? *facepalms* Whatever.
I'll comfort myself to another random useless project then. Let's see if Zee's name pop out in Google. That would be fun, no?
Labels: Maktab Duli, MD, random crap, yes I am desperate
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