Have I told you? Have I told you that seeing even a flash of your old self the feeling of joy just pour out but at the same time I hear my heart crack little by little.
The small distance we have between us seemed so far I feel as if I could lose you in just a flash.
Did you know? That your laughter was all the sign I needed to see if you're okay. That playful side of you can be another. And those are I need to keep my sanity. My sanity which I need to keep in check once in a while. Losing it again takes up a lot of my energy to put it all back into the jar.
Not too long ago upon a dreadful news which I recall to be rather trivial - but shocking - something in me snapped and after that I thought I was broken. But I was wrong. I could collect and pick up the pieces and start from scratch. Then you began to pop into my mind at unlikely times...
You are my limerence, and no one can take that away from me.
I'll be seeing you again in a fornight. Be well by then.
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It's becoming a habit that during Block 3 the high feeling whenever he's around would just be crushed down like a fly when I see him walk out, without casting a last glance back. And now would be the last till next two weeks to come. Then during break I was basically emo.
Putting aside my emo crap, I found an intersting newsletter of some sort in the girls' toilet. At least reading the contents lightened up my mood for ELit class, but it quickly disappears as the very-dim-light-bulb-almost-to-the-extent-that-it-could-be-short-circuited opens its mouth. At one point I started to dislike coming to ELit class, not because the subject bores me however because of the heavy feeling floating around the room.
I couldn't shake off the deep depression from Lit class that I stupidly brought it to EAS class too. Jeremy, YeePing, Sally and Sa'aadah noticed(well duh.) and they made a right choice to leave me be. Bearing in mind that today was the last day of this term Miss Zari had no plans to kill us with tonnes of work but rather she suggested we play a game. Alphabetical game as she calls it.
Basically she tells the question only to say the positions of some of the alphabets to the answers, a runner or a representative from each group would zoom to the front table and snatch the marker to write down the answer. Aaand it's proven that I still have it in me. Yup, this gal still has her lightning speed in these fat legs of hers.
In the end I had some fun and Khalid's team won and ours were second. *shrug* We say eachother our goodbyes and then lunch.
During the 45 minutes of lunch I spent sitting around, recommencing the emo-ness and not be bothered if I die young out of starvation. I really couldn't be concerned. Only then when everyone was gone I found Sa'aadah and she accompanied to the canteen to buy foooood.
On the way to the canteen I saw Jeremy and being not in the right mind due to lack of food I waved at him like I was a lunatic out of an asylum. Yup. He looked clueless too, and he should be. HAHAHA.
Sa'aadah left me to eat alone when I was about to eat the mee goreng. Pffft. Imagine a teary-eyed teen eating alone at a corner facing the wall. HAHAHAHAH Damn, that is sooo sad an image.
Saf and Neesa wanted me to tag along to excapade for some sort of a last day term thing I DON'T KNOW I'M SPEAKING GIBBERISH NOW!!! But I declined, and only to find myself in Wardah's van when all of them combined powers and forced me to come. But heck, it was sooooo worth it.Look how evolves from hunger to hyper. :D
Haaa. This last picture amuses me so. Neesa looks like cute, perky and hyper. Hahaha reminds me of myself when I got my first bra. HAHAHAHAHA.
On the way out of excapade Fakhri wanted to surprise Neesa again as he did when we arrived. Her expression almost the same as the picture above but replace the perkiness with sheer horror. HAHAHAHAHHAHA. Oh then I bought Cornetto's. Nyum~
Went back to school and found like very few people there. I teamed up with Saf and Syaz to play can-footie against Munir, Mush and Qeelah. And we won. Then for some reason many people were in front of the library and played either Big Two or whatever card games they were playing that time. OH! And at that time out of coincidence they played one on one and.... I don't know how to explain but they were in a parallel line. They were like a gate making DL impassable to either the entrance or exit of the library. It was sooo cool.
After some long minutes of playing cards I was forced to join in the gane of Antu, where the loser would be doing a DARE. HAHAHAH once again I had the beginner's luck and Fakhri lost two times in a row which resulted to a shameless act of kissing the pillar. MUAHAHAHHAA. I love my mind at times. Then Munir lost and kissed the pillar.
Theeeen went home. Saw Jack Sparrow on the way out. Siiigh. I miss him sooooo.
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