this was no chicken. this was evil manifest.

I cried "corn beef" in a demonic voice in front of people I'd just met. If that tells you anything about me...
Other than that, the name is Nabilah Johari who goes by her days embarrassing friends with her shameless antics.

More blabbering. because it's my party and I can meta if I want to.

Monday, January 5, 2009 8:10 PM

I'd really like a guitar. I think that it's rather hard to be dramatic and self-expressing without one.

When I feel troubled, twang.

When I feel inspired, twang.

When I feel like pissing off everyone within a five mile radius, twang.

I would decorate the box will colorful peace stickers and happy faces, as a sort of therapy for my extremely restive moments. And instead of jumping out of my window with a backpack and chunk change, I could just create a tune to the lyrics in my head. Like a hippie without the drugs, because drugs are not cool and make you drool before you drop outta school, fool. Twang.

I also shamefully admit my newest guilty pleasure:

LAST FRIENDS D: (U)

Forget abusive Ryo, Nishihara Aki crushing lesser mortals under her heel, and Mr. "I'm a makeup artist and I shy away from the attention of women" Eita.

What got me the most? Is when Ruka's covering Michiru with a blanket, and it's such a tender, peaceful moment until Ruka sees Michiru crying in her sleep, and in an instant her entire face changes -- like it physically hurts her to see Michiru in pain.

ep 2:

"DON'T TOUCH MY MICHIRU!"

*deep breath*

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

And by the third episode *blubbers* Last Friends is breaking my heart in ways I never expected. I cried twice during ep three. And I wasn't even supposed to! I mean, there weren't any rain scenes or slow-motion running! I'm just a sap.

I'm so used to overblown love triangles full of backstabbing and betrayal that the opposite is wrenching my heart in little pieces -- people who really care about each other, who sacrifice their own feelings again and again so the ones they love can be happy, even if it means giving them up to someone else. BAWL.

First shamefully tear-filled moment: the scene overlooking the ferris wheel. That was the one way I could accept Ruka not manhandling Michiru in the sharehouse and barricading the door -- that she wanted Michuru to be happy, even if it was unhealthy, even though Ruka knew what it meant to let her go when "he only goes overboard sometimes." I thought their conversation was beautifully done, especially since the drama went to the trouble of showing us Ruka and her father earlier, and what exactly it's meant to Ruka to have someone looking out for her without trying to change her decisions. And oh, oh my god. The confrontation over lunch? "Until now, I've never felt loved by anyone." Said straight to the face of someone pining for her since high school. Ouch. Ouch.

And TAKERU. Oh, woobie. Driving them to a romantic evening, then waiting angst-faced in the car as they giggle and bond. WOOBIE.

HOW MUCH DID I LOVE THAT MICHIRU LEFT SOUSUKE HERSELF? I don't watch previews, so I don't know if she sticks to her guns (or, you know, if Ruka goes after Sousuke's ear with a pair of scissors) but that scene at the end, when she RUNS STRAIGHT TO HER GIRLFRIEND'S ARMS?

"Stop saying ill things about my Ruka!"

a;fl;ksdfjlasd;jflsdf ♥ ♥ ♥

Blubbering moment 2: Ruka's face as she just holds her and holds her.

*flails* This drama is turning me into such an emotional wreck. And it's only been three episodes. I think the finale will put me in a coma.

But I couldn't accept the fact that the show would be more heartbreaking I thought I gave it another chance - OH, THAT WENT WELL.

"I decided that while you were protecting Michiru, I would protect you." TAKERU WOOBIE. Don't you know she's a lesbian? Oh, wait, sorry-- I meant she "looks at Michiru like a man." Cough. You're very smooth, show.

"About being alone... everyone is." How depressing does your show have to be, when those are words of comfort.

Read a discussion about Michiru's devotion to Sousuke, and how, after a violent father and alcoholic mother, I'm sure Sousuke's undivided attention did feel like love. His little "I will always be waiting for you" confirmed all my fears and broke me in about six different ways. Of course she hugged him after that. That's probably exactly what she was waiting for. I just can't decide if Sousuke knew it and was manipulating her yet again, or if he was actually speaking as a needy, emotionally twisted fuck up.

"When I kept you and Sousuke apart, the one who ended up being hurt... was myself." God, stab me in the face, it'd be less painful.

Also? I'm honestly disturbed by all the shippy Sousuke/Michiru icons. Seriously, you guys? Seriously? If Sousuke were played by a beer-bellied truck driver with facial warts, would you still find their abusive relationship epic and romantic? I want Ruka to cut off his ear.

Last friends. You will be stimulated. In your brain. -- Currently debating with self whether to continue Last Friends marathon but ungh how can I resist my straight lesbians. *s-sob*

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