Sigh.

Today is only the fourth or perhaps the fifth(gah as if I wanna care right now!) of the holidays and I still miss JM and Nazim. But I reaally don't wanna think about the latter, since... I'm having doubts if he's taken or not. That information just hurts me like hell.

Aannnd since a few more people knew of this blog - people I see and know - I'll restrain myself from typing out alll the heartache I'm feeling right now when I knew of them. No, none of my friends knew of them. But it fucking hurts like hell. All just seem to connect. The drinking, the mushy comments, their intimacy and closeness which is slowly ripping my heart apart.

Grrrh. I don't fucking care if your my cousin's ex bestfriend or my friend's friend but I reeaalllyyy dislike you. No, scratch that. I abhor you from the deepest darkest pit of my stomach. I fucken hate you.

God. I hate you. Oh btw please stop whoring around on other guys. And please stop playing with their hearts you mindless frigid bitch. Well since nooo ones knows about her or even that I know her from a loong time I'm just say her fucken name! And I don't fucken care of you're my mom's ex boss's daughter you bitch. I don't wanna care!!

Yes Majjiidaaahhh! I hate you, you bitch!

GOD if only I can drive legally I'd drive to your fugly house and bloody murder you right there.

Now lay off Nazim and I will at the very least spare you from a slow yet painful death. Well revenge is best served cold. And revenge is what I want. To kill you. To rearrange that fugly face of yours.

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